omg been so tremendously busy this week. and will be next week. and the week after next. feel like i've hardly gotten any sleep. really think i'm overcommitted. but i dun wanna drop anything! will persevere on and see how.
so this week is Spiritual Renewal Week. i feel like i need to be spiritually renewed. heh. the speaker was Ps. Alistair Begg..he was pretty good. his challenge to us really struck me. he told us to keep our eyes on the finishing line, don't be distracted by things around u. think i've been really distracted lately. just with classes and meetings and stuff i'm involved in..so many things to plan! no time for myself. i think i even have more meetings than classes. haha. next few weeks is gonna be crazy..tons of stuff to do for TCA..recruiting pple, advertising to churches..on top of everything else i have to do for class. OMG. i keep asking myself what did i get myself into???? God give me strength to do all these.
so today was really embarrassing. in my one class, i totally cried! so paiseh can. it's personal foundations (for christian ed)..and we're doing this book called Desiring God by john piper, which some of us think is really...weird. just the things that he says and all. so i was sharing on prayer and how we can always depend on God to provide for our needs..and then i just started talking about how i found out about the earthquake in Indonesia, then i read about tsunami warnings in Singapore, then i got really scared and called my mum to ask how everything is..and i thought i was fine. like she assured me everything was fine.. so i didn't think about it again. although i did pray for God's protection over s'pore. but suddenly in class i just started crying when i talked about that!! so mortifying. and not the little sniffles crying, but like tears streaming down my face, hardly able to talk kind of crying. aaaahhhh.
u know what. i realize something about myself. (ok maybe i already knew this) i'm not a very open person naturally. so when i do share stuff that's on my heart, i totally cry! like almost everytime! cannot stand it. crying's like a sign of weakness or something. plus i cannot talk properly when i cry. heh. arghhhh.
1 comment:
Dear gal,
Crying is never a sign of weakness. It's a sign of total dependency on God cos we are at the end of ourselves. I cry very often. I learn that crying speaks of a heart that will never be hardened against the Lord. U r a brave gal ... I noe the Lord's hands has always been on u cos u have the blessings of God over ur family that flows to u! Be strong and courageous! Amen!
Love,
Eve.
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