stressed out by the tons of stuff i have to decide n complete soon. i hate deadlines. mostly thinking about being involved in stuff next year. chapel band especially is giving me a huge headache. why is it so hard to find musicians?? why are pple so annoyingly uncommital?? why is it that 'famous' pple always get to go on stage n other normal pple don't????
TCA is another huge headache. applying for co-director next yr so i'll have a nice leadership position on my resume. hopefully i'll get it. but anw we're having a spring concert in taylor next sun..and our band is seriously falling apart. why does everyone have commitment issues? gosh. so frustrating. 2 of our band members quit, so now we're like only half a band. and it seems like EVERY other activity is happening next sun too..so no one else can play for us! arrrggghh. wish i didn't have to play. so i could go see Lifehouse in Ohio!!!! grrrr. plus stressing about whether i should go on a Lighthouse trip..which is a month long mission trip in january break. but think i won't. feel bad asking pple to sponsor me again so soon after jamaica. sighhh. wish i knew more rich pple. haha.
also thinking about working in the Writing Center..cuz my prof recommended me to the person in charge. that means she thinks i have what it takes..so i'm just gonna apply n if God allows it, then that's cool. it's kinda like tutoring others in english..like writing essays n stuff. makes u use ur brains. wonder if i should apply for another job that is brainless. like sittin around a computer n doing nothing. heh. these jobs do exist. but they're extremely popular. wonder why. :)
just seems like so many things are happening..driving me crazy! i just want some time to chill. plus the australia trip is grating on my nerves. parents and their paranoia. hellooo..i'm 20 and i'm living overseas ALL BY MYSELF. you'd think that's reason enough for me to get a little freedom and independence. geez.
on a happier note, i got back my Inductive Bible Study on the One body, many parts chapter in 1Cor. whoaaa. i got 92%!! which kinda surprised me. pleasantly. i'm always surprised by my work. which makes me happy. haha. and my prof wrote on my paper n told me that i have a strong ability to do inductive study on bible passages. that really surprised me cuz i was like, rushing through it and hoping i did well but not really knowing. and i did it on that day itself that we had to hand it in..which shocked my classmates cuz they spent days agonizing over it. heh. i just like to delay till the last possible min.
anw that reminded me of what eve told me a few months ago. i think the girls were just sitting arnd discussing who has what spiritual gifts, and they said mine's in the Word, and i was like shocked. and then this happens, and i'm shocked too! cuz i always feel like i don't completely understand bible passages..
how can u say i've a gift in this area? kinda confuses me. but i guess it's cool that i apparently understand even though i don't really understand how i understand. heh.
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