it's fall break!~

so slow yet so soon. can't believe it's fall break already! soon it'll be thanksgiving, then christmas break! which means..going home! yay! :) anw this wk was pretty slack. happiness. practiced for My Generation Night every single night of this week. it's this performance where bands get to play songs frm 20years ago till now. we're sounding better everyday..but there are like 30bands trying out. and only 10 get chosen. hopefully the fact that we're a girl band will help our chances!!! auditions are next wk. and we still don't sound perfect. aaaarrrrggghhh. more practices on sun and mon :) last night especially was crazyyy. sooo many bands fighting over one drum set n limited rooms to prac. haha.

so..i got back another paper i wrote for christian ed class. got an A as usual. not that i'm bragging, but i really don't understand! profs always tell me that i've got strong content, v good understanding of the topic, etc. and i'm like...ooookay. i just crapped that out a few mins before it was due..but if u say it's good, sure. but seriously, alot of times i really don't understand the topic well enough. i just write whatever comes to mind. and i don't know how that can come across as a good understanding of the subject! even in NJ..when i got top of the level for econs prelims..i wasn't kidding when i said i had no idea what i was writing about, and i don't know why i got such good grades! and no one believed me. until i got an E for A levels! it's weird. i'm weird.

and i always think i'm inadequate and not good enough. like, even though i get good feedback, i'm like, nahhh...it's not that great. so i wrote that in my paper, and the prof commented on it and was like, that can be prideful in a way. i guess it's true! i never thought abt it that way before. cuz i always think i'm right when i say i'm not good enough, in a way, i'm being proud. kinda twisted. haha.

anw..tomorrow we're going to Indy!!! staying in the city for 2 nights!! superrrr excited to be surrounded by buildings and shops again. YAY! pray for safety and good fellowship. :)