I'm really not a fan of goodbyes. but somehow my life seems to be full of them. can't believe i've already been here for 8 weeks, and now it's time to leave. no one wants to leave; i know i don't. it's funny how we've technically just come into each others' lives, but it feels like we've known each other for a long time. and we've definitely had plenty of great times together. it's sad to think i might never see some of these people ever again. that's the thing about living in big ol' america. but there's been talk of a NYC summer 2009 reunion next year... i'm definitely there.
Looking back
I'm glad i took that step of faith and applied for the seemingly shady program (its name alone, university of dreams, was enough to make me wonder if i was being scammed). I came all by myself to New York City, not knowing what to expect at all. i was sad to leave my friends at taylor and totally intimidated by this huge foreign city filled with people i didn't know. But now i'm leaving with tons of friends and contacts. I'm pretty sure this experience has exceeded my wildest expectations, and the people i've met have been so awesome.
I have to say, i really don't regret anything i've done, even all the stupid crazy things. I mean, i'm 21, and i'm in New York City with all the freedom in the world (without the ridiculous, life-restraining, don't drink/dance don't-have-any-fun LTC). and i finally feel like i'm living out the real college experience. sure, you might say it's pointless and meaningless and what good is there in that? but i say it's a life experience. i'm finally breaking out of my boring shell at taylor and i'm seeing the world around me without my rose-colored glasses on. yes, i compromised a little, but what's life without mistakes? i definitely learned a heck of a lot about life. it's things that i could never learn otherwise, without experiencing it for myself.
Start of something new
i guess it all started at the Black eyed peas Today show concert, where i met sarah and hit it off, and she introduced me to her group of friends. after adding a bunch of other random people, we had formed our awesome group :)
i just feel like i've been living under a protective shelter for so long. i felt so naive about anything else going on in the world. i wanted to get out and experience it for myself. and i'm glad to have had my friends; they were fun and crazy, but not too wild as to go home with strangers.
Fav memories at village townhouse, marquee, webster hall and hiro. sometimes it's just fun to have a girls night out dancing :) not a big fan of sitting around in bars.
Hot or not
All that said, i'm getting a bit tired of the whole clubbing scene. i realized last night it's not as fun when i'm sober, because i looked around me and saw a bunch of creeps trying to take advantage of girls. and all these people wasting their lives away drinking and partying.
i also realized how superficial people are. i saw a lot of my friends get turned away from so-called exclusive clubs because they weren't 'hot' enough, according to the bouncer's standards. and some of them had to pay extra just because the bouncer didn't like their outfit, and were blatantly obvious about their disdain. ridiculous, but i guess that's just how the world is. luckily (even though i got scrutinized) i never had to pay.
I learned that in this world, people's idea of a fun night is drinking a whole lot and getting drunk. the more drunk, the better. i still can't understand that, because puking in random places is not fun at all, neither is nursing a hangover and feeling like crap the next day, or not remembering much of what happened the night before. so yes, there were times i went over my limit, but then i learned what my limit was, and avoided going near there again.
so maybe my short-lived time of partying is up. i guess it's not like i'll be doing any of that at home or at taylor anyway. i'm kinda glad i'm not going back to taylor in the fall. life there is way boring in comparison. i'll be in LA!!! and then one more semester, and i'm outta there! :)
I really don't wanna leave NYC, but i guess i'm leaving with great memories and friends who i'll hopefully see sometime in the future. everyone's from/goes to school all over the States, which is what makes it SO hard to leave, because we know we might not see each other ever again. and definitely not in this setting.. in the dorm room, working hard and playing hard every week. but we made promises to visit, and i hope it happens.
tonight we had dinner all together at a nice italian restaurant one last time. and then partied it up one last time :)
sarah left first, at 3am, and it was a crying fest. i really hate goodbyes. i guess it's just beginning to hit us that we're really leaving :(
anyway, all in all, definitely the best summer of my life....
fun times. stella brought me to my first-ever all-asian club here. haha it was an interesting experience. never been around so many asians before in the US!
after trying 2 times, the third time's the charm. we finally got into the ever-exclusive hotel gansevoort's rooftop bar -- plunge. and it was free :)
although drinks were a total rip-off. but the view of the city was so beautiful.
Our last dinner together :(
After meeting a random promoter, we ended up the upscale Marquee for free entry+free table :)
...now back to the land of skinny people.
Goodbye NYC, it's been real. i'll see you soon.
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