life is good! feels like time has just passed me by. it's march already!!! can't believe it. i thought 2007 just arrived. soon i'll be home!! so fast. anw..decided not to do any summer courses or whatever. just gonna slack and enjoy my 3mths of H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! yay. i love slacking. been pretty busy. well..i guess i make myself busy by being involved in all this stuff. started a weekly bible study over lunch with a friend. accountability! yay. was good.
today in class felt kinda weirded out. well not just today. quite a few times. only in christian ed, cuz it's a small group of pple so more personal. anw..everyone was like asking questions (like they always do) about the assignments and stuff, and i'm perfectly quiet cuz i understand what needs to be done and i just don't have anything to ask (as usual). and the prof was like suddenly targeting me and asking me if i had questions. i don't understand why pple here keep asking questions! gosh. maybe i'm just too used to s'porean system. just take everything in and memorize. don't need to understand. here they really ask until they completely understand.
anw..doing inductive bible study now. kinda like it. felt it was pretty easy. but apparently only i felt that way. pple spent like 4+++ hours on an assignment while i crapped my way through in 1hour. heh. and i got full marks! and the prof kinda told the class that. now everyone thinks i'm a genius of some sorts. seriously, the tests n assignments here aren't that hard. i guess i just like analyzing stuff. but that was kinda the bad part..like we analyze the bible..and that makes it feel like some literature text instead of holy scripture. but its gd. makes me think more in depth.
won our second bball game for intramurals! only cuz the other team was mortifyingly horrid. they didn't take it seriously. which was nice. sometimes it gets too competitive for me. anw they dressed up. there was even a poofed up cow and pig costume. haha.
leadership class is over! thank God! it was pretty much awfully boring. but we did raise 75bucks for the mexico spring break trip team for our leadership project. sat in the DC and begged pple to donate for our honorable cause on mon & tue. got the mexico team all rifled up cuz our signs upset them. i think it said smth like..'support the mexico spring break team AND bail your relatives out of purgatory!' alot of pple got a kick out of it. but i guess the mexico team didn't. oh well.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Monday, March 12, 2007
retreat!
fri went to the christian ed retreat..didn't really wanna go. didn't really know anyone who was going..but forced to go for a class, so..had to get outta my comfort zone again! painful but it did me gd. haha. the guy who drove the car i was in was like some crazy dangerous person!!! he would talk or put a cd in or do something random, and then he wouldn't pay attention to the road, and so we'd swerve dangerously to another lane. omg. such a scary ride. but thank God we got to the church n back safely :) had a pretty gd time too! meeting new pple..laughing crazily over Mad Gab. omg SUCH a funny game. it's like they give u some random words that sound like a phrase n u have to guess the phrase. really hilarious if u know the phrase they're trying to pronounce n it sounds like they're learning a new language. took a tour of the church with a couple of pple. was fun. we laughed alot at the most randomest things. haha.
anw the theme of the retreat was the sabbath..rest..reflect. had a gd time of worship..then they had rooms like prayer, meditation, worship, communion..it was a really gd non-hectic time. just me and the Lord. and got to partake of the Lord's supper for the first time since christmas break. that was intense for me..spent most of my time in the meditation room..really wanted to go worship, but i knew i was missing out on His Word..so wanted to just soak in what He had to say to me. feel refreshed after that. they took away our watches/hp so no one had any concept of time...we just spent time with the Lord and didn't get distracted by anything else.
so came back fri night, hardly got any sleep..then off to mukappa retreat on sat morn! yay! slept pretty much throughout the car ride there..too tired. haha. the place was pretty nice..summer camp cabin style. only bad thing was the water seriously stank. smelt like rotten eggs. ugghhh. but the sun was FINALLY out!!!! 50degrees farenheit! yeah!! cold but at least i could feel the rays of the sun! sooo happie. tried to get a tan. i am SO white now it's not even funny. anw..we played games..shared embarrassing stories abt each other..played the question game frm orientation..stressful. it's like u have to answer pple's questions with a question of ur own to someone else..i won the last time..almost won again this time! haha. learnt so many new cards games..played monkey..soccer style. haha. almost broke the lights on the ceiling with the soccer ball. heh.
i helped to lead worship for the two sessions. was really fun. loved it! don't know why i never realized this before, but my roommate's a voice major and she suggested us getting together n doing worship tog..maybe for our floor or smth. duhh! how come i never thought of this before! haha. we shld totally do it. lookin forward to it!!
slept at like 3+am..had daylight savings time again. so at 2am the clock went one hr forward. we lost an hr. :( got high playing foosball and around-the-world table tennis. we actually entertained ourselves hitting the ping pong ball with our hands. haha. lack of sleep man.
sun morn..worship again! we did 'from the inside out' suggested by meee! haha. taught them 'hear our praises'..a new song for them but super old for me. but they loved it, which was awesome. :)
AND i am ON MY WAY to forming a chapel band!~!~ omg. SO super excited!!!! i found a drummer, a bassist (maybe), a pianist, me on guitar, and two singers!!!! aaahhh! i just need an electric guitarist! which is kinda hard to find. but oh well. we could prob do without that. but yeahhh!!! really excited. should get everyone together to prac for chapel band auditions in the fall!! and there are SO many gigs coming up for TCA..2 each month i think. exciting! so much stuff happening!!! God is so good!
anw the theme of the retreat was the sabbath..rest..reflect. had a gd time of worship..then they had rooms like prayer, meditation, worship, communion..it was a really gd non-hectic time. just me and the Lord. and got to partake of the Lord's supper for the first time since christmas break. that was intense for me..spent most of my time in the meditation room..really wanted to go worship, but i knew i was missing out on His Word..so wanted to just soak in what He had to say to me. feel refreshed after that. they took away our watches/hp so no one had any concept of time...we just spent time with the Lord and didn't get distracted by anything else.
so came back fri night, hardly got any sleep..then off to mukappa retreat on sat morn! yay! slept pretty much throughout the car ride there..too tired. haha. the place was pretty nice..summer camp cabin style. only bad thing was the water seriously stank. smelt like rotten eggs. ugghhh. but the sun was FINALLY out!!!! 50degrees farenheit! yeah!! cold but at least i could feel the rays of the sun! sooo happie. tried to get a tan. i am SO white now it's not even funny. anw..we played games..shared embarrassing stories abt each other..played the question game frm orientation..stressful. it's like u have to answer pple's questions with a question of ur own to someone else..i won the last time..almost won again this time! haha. learnt so many new cards games..played monkey..soccer style. haha. almost broke the lights on the ceiling with the soccer ball. heh.
i helped to lead worship for the two sessions. was really fun. loved it! don't know why i never realized this before, but my roommate's a voice major and she suggested us getting together n doing worship tog..maybe for our floor or smth. duhh! how come i never thought of this before! haha. we shld totally do it. lookin forward to it!!
slept at like 3+am..had daylight savings time again. so at 2am the clock went one hr forward. we lost an hr. :( got high playing foosball and around-the-world table tennis. we actually entertained ourselves hitting the ping pong ball with our hands. haha. lack of sleep man.
sun morn..worship again! we did 'from the inside out' suggested by meee! haha. taught them 'hear our praises'..a new song for them but super old for me. but they loved it, which was awesome. :)
AND i am ON MY WAY to forming a chapel band!~!~ omg. SO super excited!!!! i found a drummer, a bassist (maybe), a pianist, me on guitar, and two singers!!!! aaahhh! i just need an electric guitarist! which is kinda hard to find. but oh well. we could prob do without that. but yeahhh!!! really excited. should get everyone together to prac for chapel band auditions in the fall!! and there are SO many gigs coming up for TCA..2 each month i think. exciting! so much stuff happening!!! God is so good!
Friday, March 09, 2007
where is the love
today i heard of racist incidents happening right here at taylor in upland, indiana. it shocked me. mostly prejudiced actions against africans/african americans, and they were pretty mean. it upset me. what the heck is wrong with these people? how can they claim to be christians and yet discriminate against their own brother/sister in Christ? how they can even treat someone this way just baffles me. i'm pretty sure the love of God isn't in them. it's just upsetting to hear of such stuff occurring even in a Christian community. why can't we all just get along and be united as one in Christ? i never had to deal with ethnicity and the church before, but i can see it's a huge issue in the States. some people are just so ignorant and horrid.
today for leadership class we had an exercise. it was pretty intense. we were split up into 4 groups, and each grp had to build a community of their own without crossing the boundary to the next. no communication was allowed, so we pretty much kept to ourselves and focused on constructing our community out of cardboard boxes. at first it was fun, building our little home, school, mall and hospital. but things got heated up when the sheriffs and housing inspector pulled down our buildings due to unreasonable and irrational reasons. people wanted to rebel and riot and get back at the mean government. some pple got really mad even though it was just an exercise. intense!
i laughed through it all. pple were really funny. getting themselves thrown into 'jail' and rebelling against the govt..becoming outcasts n all. haha. we had our own roles, and i was the teacher/shop owner. our very own 'pastor' + night watch director and hospital chaplain abandoned us n joined the rebellion. haha. my grp was hilarious. we decided to have a prayer meeting in the midst of everyone else rioting in hopes that the housing inspector would return our houses to us. haha.
anw..the point was to see how different groups reacted to different situations. my group had a pretty huge space, lots of money and materials to build our community. but the govt kept taking away stuff from us and giving to the privileged group. they had anything they wanted because the govt was biased in their favor. the other 2 groups were pretty much poor and living in the 'slumps', and so alot of them rebelled. i guess the point was that life is unfair, but we just gotta deal and overcome struggles keeping in mind to do what Jesus would do.
today for leadership class we had an exercise. it was pretty intense. we were split up into 4 groups, and each grp had to build a community of their own without crossing the boundary to the next. no communication was allowed, so we pretty much kept to ourselves and focused on constructing our community out of cardboard boxes. at first it was fun, building our little home, school, mall and hospital. but things got heated up when the sheriffs and housing inspector pulled down our buildings due to unreasonable and irrational reasons. people wanted to rebel and riot and get back at the mean government. some pple got really mad even though it was just an exercise. intense!
i laughed through it all. pple were really funny. getting themselves thrown into 'jail' and rebelling against the govt..becoming outcasts n all. haha. we had our own roles, and i was the teacher/shop owner. our very own 'pastor' + night watch director and hospital chaplain abandoned us n joined the rebellion. haha. my grp was hilarious. we decided to have a prayer meeting in the midst of everyone else rioting in hopes that the housing inspector would return our houses to us. haha.
anw..the point was to see how different groups reacted to different situations. my group had a pretty huge space, lots of money and materials to build our community. but the govt kept taking away stuff from us and giving to the privileged group. they had anything they wanted because the govt was biased in their favor. the other 2 groups were pretty much poor and living in the 'slumps', and so alot of them rebelled. i guess the point was that life is unfair, but we just gotta deal and overcome struggles keeping in mind to do what Jesus would do.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
pics from broomball pick a date
me,luke,cartoon n daniel (the half jap guy everyone thinks is hot. haha)
sarah lu n me. everyone thinks we look alike. do we? i don't think so. but then..i guess all asians look alike to angmohs.
double date at the ice skating rink!
cartoon,christine (our courageous driver who braved the snow n got us there n back safely), me
luke n me after ice skating. i didn't know ice skating could be so tiring! my legs were aching. but it was fun! :)
finally my adding pics thingy works :)
these were taken from our chinese new yr celeb last sun at the souphouse..
me n alicia! love her~ she's my fav person frm malaysia :)
me n sung ah..she's wearing the traditional korean hanbok(?) thingy. so cute rite!
me,cartoon,rachael,rebecca. asian pose. haha
capri,cartoon,me,rebecca. satisfied after eating :)
katie n me! she's my DA (discipleship assistant-kinda like spiritual leader) from gerig.
me n alicia! love her~ she's my fav person frm malaysia :)
me n sung ah..she's wearing the traditional korean hanbok(?) thingy. so cute rite!
me,cartoon,rachael,rebecca. asian pose. haha
capri,cartoon,me,rebecca. satisfied after eating :)
katie n me! she's my DA (discipleship assistant-kinda like spiritual leader) from gerig.
Monday, March 05, 2007
busyness
next wk i'm gonna be so busy, it's not even funny. hw, stupid art projects that take me eons to finish and i don't even know why i'm taking the class since i'm a comm writing major, not a film production major, 3 huge tests..probably won't get back to my room everyday till at least 10+pm..sigh. and i have TWO retreats crammed into next weekend. wish me strength!
this weekend was pretty crazy too..fri was soup + movie night..yesterday we had our gerig Broomball pick-a-date at indianapolis..which is like the city of indiana. abt 2 hrs away frm taylor.
Broomball's like ice hockey..only we play it with brooms as hockey sticks, we wear our shoes instead of ice skates, and the balls are like 1/2 the size of a football. it was pretty intense. and super fun!!!
spent the afternoon decorating our brooms. haha. mine's purple and red and white (for s'pore flag!)..color coordinated with luke's broom..he was my 'date'. but he's cool, so it wasn't awkward or anything.
bcuz pick-a-dates can get awkward if u actually ask someone u like. heh. sooo..the rink was pretty crazy. tons of pple chasing after 3 balls..trying to knock them into the goals..pple falling and slipping on the ice..and we did girls vs guys..and the girls wons! with help from some guys who betrayed their team. haha. went ice skating after that. my ice skating skills pretty much suck now. but..was still fun :)
not so fun part..we got lost getting there and coming back. coming back was the most intense. we drove in circles for FOUR hours pointlessly. but conversation was fun and we got high eating donuts and soda as a midnight snack. haha. driving in winter can get kinda scary. the snow's coming frm all directions at high speeds and u can barely see anything, plus the slippery ice on the road doesn't help. but thank God we got back safety at like 3am.
barely got any sleep then had to get up and go to church.
OMG. i have found THE church to go to! God is so random and good! i went with this girl i met randomly, and the church was SO similar to FCBC, it's scarily cool. they have a baptism pool, their worship is contemporary, pple speak in tongues and sing a new song to God (hallelujah!), the pastor's energetic like ps. khong, they actually have an altar call and pple in front to minister (praise the Lord), and they have school of leaders and encounters!!! i was like..whoa!!! where did this come from?? aren't the similarities eerily cool???? God is like, so good. i can't even express it in words. and the people are amazingly wonderful. made us feel so welcome!!
we sat with the hispanics pple cuz my fren's involved in their hispanic church..they were sooo nice to us even though they couldn't really speak english. i was like, i HAVE to come back every week! and they have a youth group! i should get involved!!!! really excited now :) i finally found a place where i can possibly call my second spiritual home!!!
only thing was, the pastor kept repeating himself in the sermon, which got kinda old after a while. but God did use him to speak to me, and that was cool.
this weekend was pretty crazy too..fri was soup + movie night..yesterday we had our gerig Broomball pick-a-date at indianapolis..which is like the city of indiana. abt 2 hrs away frm taylor.
Broomball's like ice hockey..only we play it with brooms as hockey sticks, we wear our shoes instead of ice skates, and the balls are like 1/2 the size of a football. it was pretty intense. and super fun!!!
spent the afternoon decorating our brooms. haha. mine's purple and red and white (for s'pore flag!)..color coordinated with luke's broom..he was my 'date'. but he's cool, so it wasn't awkward or anything.
bcuz pick-a-dates can get awkward if u actually ask someone u like. heh. sooo..the rink was pretty crazy. tons of pple chasing after 3 balls..trying to knock them into the goals..pple falling and slipping on the ice..and we did girls vs guys..and the girls wons! with help from some guys who betrayed their team. haha. went ice skating after that. my ice skating skills pretty much suck now. but..was still fun :)
not so fun part..we got lost getting there and coming back. coming back was the most intense. we drove in circles for FOUR hours pointlessly. but conversation was fun and we got high eating donuts and soda as a midnight snack. haha. driving in winter can get kinda scary. the snow's coming frm all directions at high speeds and u can barely see anything, plus the slippery ice on the road doesn't help. but thank God we got back safety at like 3am.
barely got any sleep then had to get up and go to church.
OMG. i have found THE church to go to! God is so random and good! i went with this girl i met randomly, and the church was SO similar to FCBC, it's scarily cool. they have a baptism pool, their worship is contemporary, pple speak in tongues and sing a new song to God (hallelujah!), the pastor's energetic like ps. khong, they actually have an altar call and pple in front to minister (praise the Lord), and they have school of leaders and encounters!!! i was like..whoa!!! where did this come from?? aren't the similarities eerily cool???? God is like, so good. i can't even express it in words. and the people are amazingly wonderful. made us feel so welcome!!
we sat with the hispanics pple cuz my fren's involved in their hispanic church..they were sooo nice to us even though they couldn't really speak english. i was like, i HAVE to come back every week! and they have a youth group! i should get involved!!!! really excited now :) i finally found a place where i can possibly call my second spiritual home!!!
only thing was, the pastor kept repeating himself in the sermon, which got kinda old after a while. but God did use him to speak to me, and that was cool.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
His unfailing love
~everything You hold in Your hand, still You make time for me, i can't understand~
well..everything's better now. i feel like a peace mediator. haha. i guess it's gd being in the middle..since i dun like conflict, and am not good at handling someone being mad at me..pple are happier. which makes me happier. :)
really excited about jamaica!!! we're gonna be doing worship..drama..construction..orphanages..everything all in 10 days! haha. can't wait :) i'm in charge of our send off. gonna plan a huge partayyy for us! haha.
anw..got my hepatitis a vaccination..wasn't so bad. i have become more brave. thank You Lord! :) played more bball intramurals..got thrashed again. this time wasn't our fault k! we played against this team that had like, 3 taylor bball girls on it! how unfair is that? they were totally rough too. after a while i was like, i dun care anymore! so they won 44-0. really embarrassing since lots of guys were watching our demise from the sides. ugh.
today went for my ministry involvement at U-Turn! first time..quite nervous..but turned out to be great! was praying so hard it won't be awkward, and it wasn't! anw..U-Turn is a ministry with kids 9-12 yrs old who haven't really heard much about the bible and God and stuff..so we hang out with them, do bible study, and play games! gosh those kids are like walking bundles of energy. zooming everywhere! trying to catch up with them takes up all my energy. haha. but i loved it. was great just to get away from the complexity of adult stuff and get into the simple kid world. :) they were so adorable too. talking about their boyfriends and girlfriends like they were some 20 yr old..gosh. they're probably more experienced than me! it was funny. haha.
i think this is where God wants me. since the other 2 doors were closed, and this was opened..so..i'll prob stay here for the next 8 wks! :)
well..everything's better now. i feel like a peace mediator. haha. i guess it's gd being in the middle..since i dun like conflict, and am not good at handling someone being mad at me..pple are happier. which makes me happier. :)
really excited about jamaica!!! we're gonna be doing worship..drama..construction..orphanages..everything all in 10 days! haha. can't wait :) i'm in charge of our send off. gonna plan a huge partayyy for us! haha.
anw..got my hepatitis a vaccination..wasn't so bad. i have become more brave. thank You Lord! :) played more bball intramurals..got thrashed again. this time wasn't our fault k! we played against this team that had like, 3 taylor bball girls on it! how unfair is that? they were totally rough too. after a while i was like, i dun care anymore! so they won 44-0. really embarrassing since lots of guys were watching our demise from the sides. ugh.
today went for my ministry involvement at U-Turn! first time..quite nervous..but turned out to be great! was praying so hard it won't be awkward, and it wasn't! anw..U-Turn is a ministry with kids 9-12 yrs old who haven't really heard much about the bible and God and stuff..so we hang out with them, do bible study, and play games! gosh those kids are like walking bundles of energy. zooming everywhere! trying to catch up with them takes up all my energy. haha. but i loved it. was great just to get away from the complexity of adult stuff and get into the simple kid world. :) they were so adorable too. talking about their boyfriends and girlfriends like they were some 20 yr old..gosh. they're probably more experienced than me! it was funny. haha.
i think this is where God wants me. since the other 2 doors were closed, and this was opened..so..i'll prob stay here for the next 8 wks! :)
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
beautiful love
so suanggita called me today! at the wee hours of the morning again. haha. but really happy to hear her voice :) God has such gd timing. all the best for A level results everyone!!! dun worry!! look at me, i turned out fine :)
anw yesterday was chinese new year party at the souphouse! (even though i was pretty sad i did manage to forget about all the stuffs and have a gd time) ate such wonderful food! helped cook thai food..i'm proud of my new cooking skills. haha. there was sushi, kimchi fried rice (the best EVER! and i dun even like kimchi. that says alot), tom yum soup, noodles..yummilicious. plus of cuz good company. the place was packed! and everyone was wearing red. made me happy :)
so about the ministry thing, found a youth group from a church 20mins away..emailed them..found a children's bible study program thing..emailed them. just waiting to see which door God opens so i can do whatever He wants me to. because He knows best :)
anw yesterday was chinese new year party at the souphouse! (even though i was pretty sad i did manage to forget about all the stuffs and have a gd time) ate such wonderful food! helped cook thai food..i'm proud of my new cooking skills. haha. there was sushi, kimchi fried rice (the best EVER! and i dun even like kimchi. that says alot), tom yum soup, noodles..yummilicious. plus of cuz good company. the place was packed! and everyone was wearing red. made me happy :)
so about the ministry thing, found a youth group from a church 20mins away..emailed them..found a children's bible study program thing..emailed them. just waiting to see which door God opens so i can do whatever He wants me to. because He knows best :)
Monday, February 26, 2007
down in the dumps
feeling kinda down today..lotsa stuff happening around me. people fighting over all sorts of reasons..friendships filled with tension over something i didn't even know mattered..people breaking down over shattered hearts..worry over what ministry to get involved with for class..turned down by a few already cuz they have enough leaders..not that i think i'll be a good enough leader cuz my life feels like it's a wreck right now..still don't have a church and a community i can feel at home with..
and i just..
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
i can't see the future
what plans You have for me
i can't go back to the past
change the wrongs and hurts
i can't stand the present
this mess i find myself in
my heart is torn into pieces
and the only one who can put me back together is
You
and i just..
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
i can't see the future
what plans You have for me
i can't go back to the past
change the wrongs and hurts
i can't stand the present
this mess i find myself in
my heart is torn into pieces
and the only one who can put me back together is
You
Saturday, February 24, 2007
sore..
my arm's so sore..feels like it's gonna fall off any moment..arggghh..stupid tetanus shot.
think i've got insomnia or smth. can't really sleep the past few days. dunno why! :( nothing on my mind..just tossing and turning in bed. feeling really tired in classes..can't really concentrate. time really flies though. can't believe it's feb already!
so there's this guy who likes me..which is weird cuz i dun really know him. we had like, one class tog last semester, and i spoke like 2 sentences to him before..that's all. so i find out he likes me n i'm completely shocked. and he asked me on a pick-a-date, but i had class that night, so..now i dun really know what to say whenever i see him arnd sch. heh. plus trying to avoid this other guy who might possibly ask me out too.. ..... i wish guys weren't so complicated. all i wanna focus on now is studies and God..but it feels like guys always pop up randomly and distract me. :(
Lord be the centre of my life
think i've got insomnia or smth. can't really sleep the past few days. dunno why! :( nothing on my mind..just tossing and turning in bed. feeling really tired in classes..can't really concentrate. time really flies though. can't believe it's feb already!
so there's this guy who likes me..which is weird cuz i dun really know him. we had like, one class tog last semester, and i spoke like 2 sentences to him before..that's all. so i find out he likes me n i'm completely shocked. and he asked me on a pick-a-date, but i had class that night, so..now i dun really know what to say whenever i see him arnd sch. heh. plus trying to avoid this other guy who might possibly ask me out too.. ..... i wish guys weren't so complicated. all i wanna focus on now is studies and God..but it feels like guys always pop up randomly and distract me. :(
Lord be the centre of my life
Friday, February 23, 2007
yay! this is my art project for current affairs. it's like on death and destruction and despair..but yet there's always hope as seen by the linking of hands and the guy praying..they're strategically placed in the sky where God is. haha.
got my tetanus shot today! was so freaked out by stupid josh. nearly cried n wanted my mummy there! but the nurse just poked me with the needle and it was over, and i felt tremendously foolish for being so scared. haha. have to go back for another shot next wk. :(
Thursday, February 22, 2007
pics just for joce :)
me in pink! some girls n i wore red/pink this wk to celeb CNY in our own way :) the only way i'll ever wear pink. haha.
us bowling..we got thrashed by the other team. haha.
my jamaica spring break mission team! gettin to know them better :)
me n alex after our gerig girls dance party! was awesome. our very own club in our hallway :)
me and rachael at capri's bdae party
yay!
SO my 1.5 mile run is over! i walked half the time..haha. made it in 20mins. and got into a deep conversation with a classmate while we walked tog. so i'd say it was a rather enjoyable 'run' :)
ystdy had my first COS104 (computing class) quiz..guessed the whole thing. couldn't bother studying. sooo boring! all that stuff about whatever's inside the com..like i care! i just want it to work! so anw..my guessing skills are pretty rockin' cuz i got 6/10! pleasant surprise. haha.
worked on photoshop for my art project..the theme was current affairs, so i did the indonesian flood. not that i know anything that's goin on arnd the world now..i looked to my parents for help. haha. the only current thing i know is britney spears shaved her head. haha. will try and put my art piece up on my blog if i can. :) it's pretty sucky, but..whatever. my fren who's an art major was like..you'll prob have to spend at least 7hrs on it. but i was done in 2hrs! so...that was cool. :)
ystdy's dinner was awesome. it was some special occasion..i have no idea what. but dinner was basically junk food. hot dogs, fries, cotton candy, popcorn, ice balls that looked like ice kachang but were tasteless..yup. and they set up a mini bball court in the DC..was like some bball event or smth. anw..had fun throwing popcorn at pple and making a huge mess in the DC. feel bad for the pple who have to clean it up. heh.
today was Battle of the bands! it's like a competition where pple form bands and play covers of songs and we get to choose who wins..was pretty awesome. i knew like 3 out of the 5 bands that competed. this one guy was...whoaaaa. i bet all the girls are in love with him now. i am. haha. his guitar skills are like the most amazing EVER! and his voice! everyone was blown away. and i know him! he was in my class last sem.. didn't know he was so musically talented. :)
and then i played for intramural basketball for my dorm..we pretty much got thrashed. and by the soccer team no less. 28-5. haha. oh well. it was really fun though. we were competitive but having fun still. and amazingly i'm not tired/sore! i'm energetic! i shld workout more :)
so today was really stressed out cuz had a million and one things to do and events to attend, but it's all over. glad i'm done with all my hw and stuff.
just gotta look forward to tmr..where i have to take my tetanus shots!! aaahhhh. i hate shots. seriously. pls pray for me. this stupid guy kept telling me how thick the needle was and how painful the shot was and he was scaring the bajookees out of me. still dunno whether he's kidding or not. meanoooo.
ystdy had my first COS104 (computing class) quiz..guessed the whole thing. couldn't bother studying. sooo boring! all that stuff about whatever's inside the com..like i care! i just want it to work! so anw..my guessing skills are pretty rockin' cuz i got 6/10! pleasant surprise. haha.
worked on photoshop for my art project..the theme was current affairs, so i did the indonesian flood. not that i know anything that's goin on arnd the world now..i looked to my parents for help. haha. the only current thing i know is britney spears shaved her head. haha. will try and put my art piece up on my blog if i can. :) it's pretty sucky, but..whatever. my fren who's an art major was like..you'll prob have to spend at least 7hrs on it. but i was done in 2hrs! so...that was cool. :)
ystdy's dinner was awesome. it was some special occasion..i have no idea what. but dinner was basically junk food. hot dogs, fries, cotton candy, popcorn, ice balls that looked like ice kachang but were tasteless..yup. and they set up a mini bball court in the DC..was like some bball event or smth. anw..had fun throwing popcorn at pple and making a huge mess in the DC. feel bad for the pple who have to clean it up. heh.
today was Battle of the bands! it's like a competition where pple form bands and play covers of songs and we get to choose who wins..was pretty awesome. i knew like 3 out of the 5 bands that competed. this one guy was...whoaaaa. i bet all the girls are in love with him now. i am. haha. his guitar skills are like the most amazing EVER! and his voice! everyone was blown away. and i know him! he was in my class last sem.. didn't know he was so musically talented. :)
and then i played for intramural basketball for my dorm..we pretty much got thrashed. and by the soccer team no less. 28-5. haha. oh well. it was really fun though. we were competitive but having fun still. and amazingly i'm not tired/sore! i'm energetic! i shld workout more :)
so today was really stressed out cuz had a million and one things to do and events to attend, but it's all over. glad i'm done with all my hw and stuff.
just gotta look forward to tmr..where i have to take my tetanus shots!! aaahhhh. i hate shots. seriously. pls pray for me. this stupid guy kept telling me how thick the needle was and how painful the shot was and he was scaring the bajookees out of me. still dunno whether he's kidding or not. meanoooo.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Misery
I am but so small and so weak
But still You readily give me strength
Sometimes I'm so powerless
You know it and You fill me up
I think no one else knows me
And all the things they cannot see
But even with the curtains drawn
You know everything that's going on
The best of me without You will fall
Sorrow comes and to Your feet I crawl
Though times I may want to give up
You still stay and You never doubt
In Your perfect purity
Even the light seems dark
How can I praise Your name
How can misery reach Your perfection?
But You still want me
You still love me
You hold on to me and cover me with Your hand
Take away my misery
So that I can be
more like You
Worship You still
- 19 april '05
Copyright by Benita Lee
But still You readily give me strength
Sometimes I'm so powerless
You know it and You fill me up
I think no one else knows me
And all the things they cannot see
But even with the curtains drawn
You know everything that's going on
The best of me without You will fall
Sorrow comes and to Your feet I crawl
Though times I may want to give up
You still stay and You never doubt
In Your perfect purity
Even the light seems dark
How can I praise Your name
How can misery reach Your perfection?
But You still want me
You still love me
You hold on to me and cover me with Your hand
Take away my misery
So that I can be
more like You
Worship You still
- 19 april '05
Copyright by Benita Lee
happy CNY to me
doesn't really feel like CNY here. missin out on all the atmosphere at home! the annoying CNY songs on the radio n tv..yummy food like my ah ma's cooking..all my angbaos..relatives i had no idea i had cuz we see each other once a year and forget they exist after that...aaahhhhh. sigh. today's just another ordinary day. like yesterday. and the day before. though my family called while in the midst of CNY celebrations. made me realize i miss CNY! grrrr.
fri had bubble tea party. was a happy day. so many pple came..laughed so hard like never before. haha. was asked to sing s'pore national anthem, and to my utter shame, i realized i forgot. hehe. only could remember mari kita...... uhhh.. blank. so much for 18 years of propaganda in sch. heh.
ystdy played in the snow again. need new gloves. 1min in the snow and my hands are numb. got hit in the head by a huge snowball made by stupid levi..it was 3 times the size of my head can! it hurt. after that, it was war. and like a hero, i ran away screaming until we reached the theatre. haha. went to see our very own taylor production with the set i helped paint! my name was in the brochure! i'm famous! yay! haha. it was ok..almost fell asleep at certain points. was pretty depressing. most plays i've seen are depressing. dunno why. but i loved their accents. so quaint.
today played at worship for forest park methodist church in fort wayne..went pretty alright. had fun..i really do love doin this. those pple are like really conservative, so their worship is mostly hymns and they rarely get to see this kinda worship, so they really really appreciated our presence there. it was so awesome to be welcomed and appreciated like that. they even cooked us lunch! homecooked meals do wonderful things to my starved stomach. :)
fri had bubble tea party. was a happy day. so many pple came..laughed so hard like never before. haha. was asked to sing s'pore national anthem, and to my utter shame, i realized i forgot. hehe. only could remember mari kita...... uhhh.. blank. so much for 18 years of propaganda in sch. heh.
ystdy played in the snow again. need new gloves. 1min in the snow and my hands are numb. got hit in the head by a huge snowball made by stupid levi..it was 3 times the size of my head can! it hurt. after that, it was war. and like a hero, i ran away screaming until we reached the theatre. haha. went to see our very own taylor production with the set i helped paint! my name was in the brochure! i'm famous! yay! haha. it was ok..almost fell asleep at certain points. was pretty depressing. most plays i've seen are depressing. dunno why. but i loved their accents. so quaint.
today played at worship for forest park methodist church in fort wayne..went pretty alright. had fun..i really do love doin this. those pple are like really conservative, so their worship is mostly hymns and they rarely get to see this kinda worship, so they really really appreciated our presence there. it was so awesome to be welcomed and appreciated like that. they even cooked us lunch! homecooked meals do wonderful things to my starved stomach. :)
Friday, February 16, 2007
In Christ Alone
ok, past few days, been really happy. even on cheesy valentine's day. cuz received lotsa chocs and cards! and 3 e-cards from my mummy n daddy! haha. they so cute. but today..depressed again. ughhhhh. pms. in pain. really wish i can break through in this aspect of my life. been haunting me for so long.
so..yesterday it all started again. feels like a vicious cycle. and this time it was worse, because it was my friend who said it. she was like, i dont get the church in america. who lifts up their hands in church?? and i was completely shocked. i was like, i do!!
sighhhh. i'm battling this... different denomination thing all over again. i hate it. why do we have to be divided? we should be united as a body in Christ, but this issue has been plaguing the body of Christ for so long and no one's doing anything about it. not like we can change anything anyway.
then..another friend, or friends rather. they were like, women shouldn't be holding leadership positions in the church. it's just not biblical. and i was like..ahhhh..Lord are You trying to test me or something? Now i'm like, it is really biblical that women cannot be leaders? then what's the Lord doing? putting all these dreams and grand ideas in my head, making me wanna serve Him, and then now i find out i can't. well it's probably not impossible, but it'll be a heck of a try. trying to fight my way through, to prove to these people that women can do it, that we're just as equally called to serve the Lord. feel like we as women have so much more work cut out for us. like we have to do much better than guys just to be seen as equal among them. so much pressure! now that i think about it, i've never seen a female worship leader in chapel either. great. am i supposed to be the only one who believes in myself and in God's power to work through me and use me?
can someone please tell me the verses for lifting our hands..for women serving in church..if there even are any..
so..yesterday it all started again. feels like a vicious cycle. and this time it was worse, because it was my friend who said it. she was like, i dont get the church in america. who lifts up their hands in church?? and i was completely shocked. i was like, i do!!
sighhhh. i'm battling this... different denomination thing all over again. i hate it. why do we have to be divided? we should be united as a body in Christ, but this issue has been plaguing the body of Christ for so long and no one's doing anything about it. not like we can change anything anyway.
then..another friend, or friends rather. they were like, women shouldn't be holding leadership positions in the church. it's just not biblical. and i was like..ahhhh..Lord are You trying to test me or something? Now i'm like, it is really biblical that women cannot be leaders? then what's the Lord doing? putting all these dreams and grand ideas in my head, making me wanna serve Him, and then now i find out i can't. well it's probably not impossible, but it'll be a heck of a try. trying to fight my way through, to prove to these people that women can do it, that we're just as equally called to serve the Lord. feel like we as women have so much more work cut out for us. like we have to do much better than guys just to be seen as equal among them. so much pressure! now that i think about it, i've never seen a female worship leader in chapel either. great. am i supposed to be the only one who believes in myself and in God's power to work through me and use me?
can someone please tell me the verses for lifting our hands..for women serving in church..if there even are any..
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
snow day!
today was..an experience. my first snow day. classes were cancelled cuz there were a huge snow storm. it was awful esp in the morning!!!! the wind was hurling and the snow was being whirled around like some mini tornado. the ground was completely covered in a snow blanket about 10 inches deep. couldn't even see the roads/pavements! couldn't see how deep the snow was too, which was pretty dangerous. cuz i would walk on happily (well not happily cuz snow was in my face every second) and then suddenly, plop! the snow would come up to my knees cuz there's a sudden slope or smth. horrible!!!
i lived every second in fear not knowing when i was gonna fall next. it was way beyond cold. it was freezing. and then levi decided to have a snowball fight. craziness! i got snow all over my coat. and my hands were numb for a few mins. and the cars! omg. so hilarious!!! they were up to their tyres covered in snow, and so when they tried to get outta the parking lot, it was impossible. we saw a car making progress though, gunning the engine, then reversing, then going forward again, and repeating the cycle a gazillion times. and he moved like 1cm in 5mins. hahaha. walking was much faster though more brutal.
anyway!~ besides all that..did i mention classes were cancelled???? happiness. today was my worst day sumore! sooo happy. my alarm rang at 9am, i groggily opened my eyes, and my roommate announced that all classes were cancelled for the day! we rejoiced. i tried to go back to sleep, but the excitement was gnawing away at me. so i went online for the first time in weeks. :) then i slacked around for the whole day. till spiritual renewal series #2. this guy frm sri lanka's preaching. he's pretty gd. then we braved the snow and wind and made it to the souphouse for chai! so nice n warm. this whole day makes me so wanna move to california. where the sun always shines! :)
plus. let's all pray together with me that classes are cancelled again tomorrow! so i can postpone my dreaded 1.5 mile run!
OH! and thank God!!! i took my first biblical literature exam ystdy, and got like 96%! isn't God amazing??? i nearly died memorizing all those dates (1450BC Israel's exodus from Egypt - Exodus, 930BC-586BC Divided Kingdom of Israel and Judah.. just to name a few). it was pretty painful. BUT..the Lord was with me! as always! and i did way past my expectations. God is so good. :)
i lived every second in fear not knowing when i was gonna fall next. it was way beyond cold. it was freezing. and then levi decided to have a snowball fight. craziness! i got snow all over my coat. and my hands were numb for a few mins. and the cars! omg. so hilarious!!! they were up to their tyres covered in snow, and so when they tried to get outta the parking lot, it was impossible. we saw a car making progress though, gunning the engine, then reversing, then going forward again, and repeating the cycle a gazillion times. and he moved like 1cm in 5mins. hahaha. walking was much faster though more brutal.
anyway!~ besides all that..did i mention classes were cancelled???? happiness. today was my worst day sumore! sooo happy. my alarm rang at 9am, i groggily opened my eyes, and my roommate announced that all classes were cancelled for the day! we rejoiced. i tried to go back to sleep, but the excitement was gnawing away at me. so i went online for the first time in weeks. :) then i slacked around for the whole day. till spiritual renewal series #2. this guy frm sri lanka's preaching. he's pretty gd. then we braved the snow and wind and made it to the souphouse for chai! so nice n warm. this whole day makes me so wanna move to california. where the sun always shines! :)
plus. let's all pray together with me that classes are cancelled again tomorrow! so i can postpone my dreaded 1.5 mile run!
OH! and thank God!!! i took my first biblical literature exam ystdy, and got like 96%! isn't God amazing??? i nearly died memorizing all those dates (1450BC Israel's exodus from Egypt - Exodus, 930BC-586BC Divided Kingdom of Israel and Judah.. just to name a few). it was pretty painful. BUT..the Lord was with me! as always! and i did way past my expectations. God is so good. :)
Monday, February 12, 2007
haircut!
i got a haircut! sort of. cut my fringe myself. haha. think i look kinda like a doll with all that straight fringe.
imagine me n you..so happie together!
that song is stuck in my head. arrrgghh. but i love it. haha.
finishing off the mailing list for the jamaica mission trip..took me hours to write a personal note, stuff the envelopes with stuff and address them..so if u get an envelope frm taylor university, dun be surprised! i put down lots of pple's names cuz they required like 75 addresses. ugh.
anw been working out this wk!!! almost everyday. so proud of myself can! haha. preparing to run 2.4km yet again. and here i was thinking that the horrors of napfa was over. well at least there's no pass/fail. i can just walk the whole way. just that it'll be embarrassing cuz i'll be last. heh.
ystdy had noodle partyy! yummy. there's a new guy who transferred to taylor. missionary kid frm thailand. he makes me laugh! haha. watched this horrible korean movie at the souphouse. think it's called the king and the clown..smth like that. so gross! about 2 gay guys. like the korean version of brokeback mountain, only not as visual probably. anw..the plot was pretty ok..if it were a guy and a girl, it'll be a really touching movie. but the mere fact that it was two guys made us..not sympathize with their tragic lives.
today went to visit a korean church with a couple of pple. it was ok..really traditional and conservative. plus the whole language barrier thing. the translator seemed unsure of how to translate so it got kinda boring. but we had free lunch. yummy korean food! :) haven't studied AT ALL. and i've got 2 papers and one test next wk. ughh.
biblical literature!!! so hard. must memorize all the dates and stuff frm the bible..
finishing off the mailing list for the jamaica mission trip..took me hours to write a personal note, stuff the envelopes with stuff and address them..so if u get an envelope frm taylor university, dun be surprised! i put down lots of pple's names cuz they required like 75 addresses. ugh.
anw been working out this wk!!! almost everyday. so proud of myself can! haha. preparing to run 2.4km yet again. and here i was thinking that the horrors of napfa was over. well at least there's no pass/fail. i can just walk the whole way. just that it'll be embarrassing cuz i'll be last. heh.
ystdy had noodle partyy! yummy. there's a new guy who transferred to taylor. missionary kid frm thailand. he makes me laugh! haha. watched this horrible korean movie at the souphouse. think it's called the king and the clown..smth like that. so gross! about 2 gay guys. like the korean version of brokeback mountain, only not as visual probably. anw..the plot was pretty ok..if it were a guy and a girl, it'll be a really touching movie. but the mere fact that it was two guys made us..not sympathize with their tragic lives.
today went to visit a korean church with a couple of pple. it was ok..really traditional and conservative. plus the whole language barrier thing. the translator seemed unsure of how to translate so it got kinda boring. but we had free lunch. yummy korean food! :) haven't studied AT ALL. and i've got 2 papers and one test next wk. ughh.
biblical literature!!! so hard. must memorize all the dates and stuff frm the bible..
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