ooh forgot to say..
COMING HOME ON 17DEC 7AM!!! aaaahhhh!! only like 3 more wks! super duper excitedddd :) :) :) :)
can't wait! miss u all!! miss the food too!! miss the gd old sunny weather too!
but lookin forward to the flight though.
have to transfer flight FOUR times plus wait SIX hours at newyork JFK airport. uggghhhhh. hope i can make it for youth service on sun!~!~!!~!~!~!~
Saturday, November 25, 2006
thanksgiving~~
give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, His love endures forever~
thank You Lord for being with me thru everything. just like You promised, since You brought me to it, You'll bring me through it. thank You for family and friends and everyone that i love! :)
am in the midst of thanksgiving break now..at faith's house. (the fren i knew in pri sch) with cartoon n sung ah :) 3 hours drive from taylor. having asian partayy! haha. gd food. went to the park yesterday. been a lonnnggg time since i cycled! haha. thanksgiving dinner was gd..i love turkey! the family invited two other chinese couples over. they were so chinese! haha. like china chinese. the little girlie was adorableeee!! ate till i was stuffed. :)
it's been a gd relaxing break. not much hw too! read psalms 24 yesterday..something it said struck me - the earth is the Lord's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it.
everything i have belongs to the Lord. and He has blessed me with so much, but He can take away easily too. so thank You Lord for all the blessings in my life. help me to use what You've given me for Your glory~
thank You Lord for being with me thru everything. just like You promised, since You brought me to it, You'll bring me through it. thank You for family and friends and everyone that i love! :)
am in the midst of thanksgiving break now..at faith's house. (the fren i knew in pri sch) with cartoon n sung ah :) 3 hours drive from taylor. having asian partayy! haha. gd food. went to the park yesterday. been a lonnnggg time since i cycled! haha. thanksgiving dinner was gd..i love turkey! the family invited two other chinese couples over. they were so chinese! haha. like china chinese. the little girlie was adorableeee!! ate till i was stuffed. :)
it's been a gd relaxing break. not much hw too! read psalms 24 yesterday..something it said struck me - the earth is the Lord's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it.
everything i have belongs to the Lord. and He has blessed me with so much, but He can take away easily too. so thank You Lord for all the blessings in my life. help me to use what You've given me for Your glory~
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
EXCITED
so excited so excited so excitedddd!!!! aahhhh!!!
thanksgiving break starts tmr!! well it started already for me since i dun have any classes tmr!~!~ aaahhh!!!
a week long break!~!~~! who wouldn't be excited???
kinda missed class today cuz was too absorbed on my com. haha. who cares abt chemistry anyway.
met my global engagement family..or at least one person from the family. it's this thing where they pair up international students with families here..to make them suffer or smth. haha. i didn't ask to be paired up but they gave me a family anyway. heh. guess they figured i couldn't turn them down if they alrdy assigned me one. oh well. she's really nice though. she's the off campus coordinator..and i'm thinkin of goin to aust for music studies or washington for their journalism program so talked to her abit abt that. had a nice lunch with her at ivanhoe's. plus she treated me! so nice of her :)
just got back from watchin half of 'the island' with rebecca..freaky movie. so like brave new world. i've never been this free in my life!! nothing to do!! dun even have hw..or much of it..during the break. makes me kinda bored. haha.
found a few JC friends i haven't been in contact with since As..they're all overseas now! and having the time of their lives partying and having fun..and..i guess i can't help feeling a little little bit jealous. like what on earth am i doing here in upland, indiana, stuck in an ulu place with nothing much to do. can't have parties/dancing or clubbing..i know these aren't things i should be doing, but..uggghhh..just so boring around here! doesn't help that my dorm's kinda boring too!! wish i were in the city..where i could at least go out n shop or smth. i guess i don't wanna be one of these people do party non stop and waste their lives away. but sometimes it's just nice to have a little fun. maybe God's purposely making me stay here so i'll stop yearning for things of the world and spend more time with Him. hmm.
thanksgiving break starts tmr!! well it started already for me since i dun have any classes tmr!~!~ aaahhh!!!
a week long break!~!~~! who wouldn't be excited???
kinda missed class today cuz was too absorbed on my com. haha. who cares abt chemistry anyway.
met my global engagement family..or at least one person from the family. it's this thing where they pair up international students with families here..to make them suffer or smth. haha. i didn't ask to be paired up but they gave me a family anyway. heh. guess they figured i couldn't turn them down if they alrdy assigned me one. oh well. she's really nice though. she's the off campus coordinator..and i'm thinkin of goin to aust for music studies or washington for their journalism program so talked to her abit abt that. had a nice lunch with her at ivanhoe's. plus she treated me! so nice of her :)
just got back from watchin half of 'the island' with rebecca..freaky movie. so like brave new world. i've never been this free in my life!! nothing to do!! dun even have hw..or much of it..during the break. makes me kinda bored. haha.
found a few JC friends i haven't been in contact with since As..they're all overseas now! and having the time of their lives partying and having fun..and..i guess i can't help feeling a little little bit jealous. like what on earth am i doing here in upland, indiana, stuck in an ulu place with nothing much to do. can't have parties/dancing or clubbing..i know these aren't things i should be doing, but..uggghhh..just so boring around here! doesn't help that my dorm's kinda boring too!! wish i were in the city..where i could at least go out n shop or smth. i guess i don't wanna be one of these people do party non stop and waste their lives away. but sometimes it's just nice to have a little fun. maybe God's purposely making me stay here so i'll stop yearning for things of the world and spend more time with Him. hmm.
Monday, November 20, 2006
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u know what, all my posts are always so long and loh soh..
so decided to do a record breaking short one!
~Jesus, be the centre
be my hope, be my song, Jesus
Jesus, be my vision
be my path, be my guide, Jesus~
so decided to do a record breaking short one!
~Jesus, be the centre
be my hope, be my song, Jesus
Jesus, be my vision
be my path, be my guide, Jesus~
tired again...
eyes closing now. going to sleep after this. thought it'll be a nice, relaxing weekend where i could finally sit in my room and 'nua'..haha. and just do nothing. but no..so tired now!!
ystdy went to workout. actually managed to stay in the gym for 45mins! so proud of me. no longer a slacker. haha. my legs ache so bad now though. only been to the gym twice since i've been here. haha. and omg. i saw the calorie counter thingy..and i ran for like 20+mins and i only burned like 300 calories i think. omg!! i can eat more than 300 calories in one meal!! i read somewhere ( was it in Drawing Near?) that our body is a temple of God..not that i didn't know that before, but it just didn't strike me that much before. feel like i've been defiling my body or smth. haha. sounds kinda extreme but..i've been filling my body with junk food and bad stuff! have to detox now..gonna eat only salads and fruits forever! well maybe not forever but for a while. heh. anw i want God to be pleased with all aspects of my life..even the way i eat. hmm..does that mean all the chocs n maggi mee in my room has got to go??? :(
did laundry. the fun of doing laundry is seeping away. i hate doing laundry!!!! ugh. plus it made my jeans shrink! i'm serious. it's not that i've put on weight although i'm sure i have, but it was fine one day and then i washed it and put it in the dryer (fatal mistake) and then the next day it was tighter! damn sad now. not gonna last winter with only 3 pairs of jeans!!!
went to visit swallow robin for the first time since i've been here..never got around to going there. it's just so far away. but i like it. it's so small and home-y. sat there and had a deep conversation with sung ah. haha. it was nice. went over to the souphouse..supposed to watch matrix 2 but ended up playing games w other pple there. then we got hungry so walked over to handy andy's! ahhh..so bad eating choc at night!!! but the worst part of the evening was later. we played spoons. which is essentially the game heart attack but when u lose u dun slap pple's hands. u drink one HUGE glass of water. i lost twice. the water was extremely gross. ugh. had to go pee like 6 times after that. but it still was fun in the midst of the suffering. haha.
got back to my room pretty late and woke up at 7+am today. so tired! i dun even wake up this early for sch. went with some pple to amy's church - muncie alliance. was pretty cool. worship was alright. they actually sang hillsongs! haha. it just nv fails to amaze me when pple around here know hillsongs..guess they're pretty well-known after all! that's cool. but the tempo of worship was kinda...slowwww. soothing but slow. the msg was good. i liked it! about not caring about what others think, but only about what God thinks.
'the fear of man hinders us from pleasing God'
seems like God keeps telling me not to care about what others think but to just go ahead and be firm in what i believe and just live for Him.
~it's all about You, Jesus. and all this is for You, for Your glory and Your grace. it's not about me, as if You should do things my way. You alone are God, and I surrender to Your ways~
dun mind going back to that church again :)
went shopping after that!~!~ i LOVE shopping ever since i've been here!! it just makes me happy to go away from campus and just see the outside world!! hahaha. guilty to say i bought alot of stuff again. heh. but i have gd reason! it's clothes in preparation for winter cuz i've been pretty much freezing everyday. altho i got some pretty summer clothes!!couldn't resist! :)
it's kinda depressing around here. no wonder pple get seasonal depression. seriously. i shld take some pics. it's gloomy and dark and rainy and the trees are all BOTAK now. looks like a scene from a horror movie where the trees move and kill pple or smth. ugh. no more black for my wardrobe. outside's depressing enough.
LOVE YOU LORD!~
ystdy went to workout. actually managed to stay in the gym for 45mins! so proud of me. no longer a slacker. haha. my legs ache so bad now though. only been to the gym twice since i've been here. haha. and omg. i saw the calorie counter thingy..and i ran for like 20+mins and i only burned like 300 calories i think. omg!! i can eat more than 300 calories in one meal!! i read somewhere ( was it in Drawing Near?) that our body is a temple of God..not that i didn't know that before, but it just didn't strike me that much before. feel like i've been defiling my body or smth. haha. sounds kinda extreme but..i've been filling my body with junk food and bad stuff! have to detox now..gonna eat only salads and fruits forever! well maybe not forever but for a while. heh. anw i want God to be pleased with all aspects of my life..even the way i eat. hmm..does that mean all the chocs n maggi mee in my room has got to go??? :(
did laundry. the fun of doing laundry is seeping away. i hate doing laundry!!!! ugh. plus it made my jeans shrink! i'm serious. it's not that i've put on weight although i'm sure i have, but it was fine one day and then i washed it and put it in the dryer (fatal mistake) and then the next day it was tighter! damn sad now. not gonna last winter with only 3 pairs of jeans!!!
went to visit swallow robin for the first time since i've been here..never got around to going there. it's just so far away. but i like it. it's so small and home-y. sat there and had a deep conversation with sung ah. haha. it was nice. went over to the souphouse..supposed to watch matrix 2 but ended up playing games w other pple there. then we got hungry so walked over to handy andy's! ahhh..so bad eating choc at night!!! but the worst part of the evening was later. we played spoons. which is essentially the game heart attack but when u lose u dun slap pple's hands. u drink one HUGE glass of water. i lost twice. the water was extremely gross. ugh. had to go pee like 6 times after that. but it still was fun in the midst of the suffering. haha.
got back to my room pretty late and woke up at 7+am today. so tired! i dun even wake up this early for sch. went with some pple to amy's church - muncie alliance. was pretty cool. worship was alright. they actually sang hillsongs! haha. it just nv fails to amaze me when pple around here know hillsongs..guess they're pretty well-known after all! that's cool. but the tempo of worship was kinda...slowwww. soothing but slow. the msg was good. i liked it! about not caring about what others think, but only about what God thinks.
'the fear of man hinders us from pleasing God'
seems like God keeps telling me not to care about what others think but to just go ahead and be firm in what i believe and just live for Him.
~it's all about You, Jesus. and all this is for You, for Your glory and Your grace. it's not about me, as if You should do things my way. You alone are God, and I surrender to Your ways~
dun mind going back to that church again :)
went shopping after that!~!~ i LOVE shopping ever since i've been here!! it just makes me happy to go away from campus and just see the outside world!! hahaha. guilty to say i bought alot of stuff again. heh. but i have gd reason! it's clothes in preparation for winter cuz i've been pretty much freezing everyday. altho i got some pretty summer clothes!!couldn't resist! :)
it's kinda depressing around here. no wonder pple get seasonal depression. seriously. i shld take some pics. it's gloomy and dark and rainy and the trees are all BOTAK now. looks like a scene from a horror movie where the trees move and kill pple or smth. ugh. no more black for my wardrobe. outside's depressing enough.
LOVE YOU LORD!~
Saturday, November 18, 2006
happiee day :)
today's a happie day! i was floating on clouds all day long. haha. suanggita emerlin called me early in the morn and woke me up from my delicious sleep! but..that was ok. ecstatic to hear from her! love u suang! really glad u called. missed u!! and i have no idea how to call s'pore! tried but nv got through. haha. anw..just really encouraged by suang n the stuff she said. so..gd start to gd day! :) plus another interpersonal comm class opened up so i dropped geology with glee! :) NO SCI for me next term!! awesome!! haha.
and then public speakin class was fun..we had to do this puzzle today. i love puzzles! and our grp speech is on music! persuading pple to go learn an instrument. i love music! and then expos writing was awesome too! we were at the com lab so i chatted with pple the whole time..except for one min where the teacher walked up behind me so i quickly logged off and pretended to be working on my paper. haha. but i got to talk to so many pple!~!~ happie. so touched by what u said, kenny! haha. and terry!!! future MC!! awesommeee.. :) can't wait to go home!~!~!~
really really really really really completely totally definitely nauseatingly sick of DC food right now. even maggi mee everyday is better compared to what i face in the DC. oh god. it's enough to turn me away from food. i've gone from 'i live to eat' to 'i eat to live'. i'm like, let's just get this over with. just go eat dinner/lunch n be done with it. it's that gross! ugh. so totally coming back here with tons of food for next term. gonna be well prepared.
had TCA in the evening..we went to this church in hartford city few mins away..it was alright. the pple in the church were really nice n told us we did good..kinda tired though. need my sleep. came back and got a nice surprise! talked to my parents n grandma on skype! :) my two little bros refused to talk to me though. rather play xbox/watch tv than talk to me! their best sister in the whole wide world! oh well. guys will be guys. then walked out arnd midnight to get some food..that's one nice thing about staying in the ulu countryside..it's pretty safe. :)
so..going to sleep now. not gonna wake up tmr till afternoon. yay!
~Jesus, be the centre of my life~
and then public speakin class was fun..we had to do this puzzle today. i love puzzles! and our grp speech is on music! persuading pple to go learn an instrument. i love music! and then expos writing was awesome too! we were at the com lab so i chatted with pple the whole time..except for one min where the teacher walked up behind me so i quickly logged off and pretended to be working on my paper. haha. but i got to talk to so many pple!~!~ happie. so touched by what u said, kenny! haha. and terry!!! future MC!! awesommeee.. :) can't wait to go home!~!~!~
really really really really really completely totally definitely nauseatingly sick of DC food right now. even maggi mee everyday is better compared to what i face in the DC. oh god. it's enough to turn me away from food. i've gone from 'i live to eat' to 'i eat to live'. i'm like, let's just get this over with. just go eat dinner/lunch n be done with it. it's that gross! ugh. so totally coming back here with tons of food for next term. gonna be well prepared.
had TCA in the evening..we went to this church in hartford city few mins away..it was alright. the pple in the church were really nice n told us we did good..kinda tired though. need my sleep. came back and got a nice surprise! talked to my parents n grandma on skype! :) my two little bros refused to talk to me though. rather play xbox/watch tv than talk to me! their best sister in the whole wide world! oh well. guys will be guys. then walked out arnd midnight to get some food..that's one nice thing about staying in the ulu countryside..it's pretty safe. :)
so..going to sleep now. not gonna wake up tmr till afternoon. yay!
~Jesus, be the centre of my life~
Friday, November 17, 2006
my generation~
registered for classes for spring semester yesterday! successful! haha. everyone told me freshmen usually don't get most of the classes they want, but i got into all! amazing! praise the Lord! :) and to imagine i was so stressed out cuz the classes were filling up pretty fast. God is always good :) ystdy i was so tired from gettin only 4hrs of sleep everyday that i went to bed early! at 12. heh. funny how 12 has become 'early' for me. at least i got like 10 hrs of sleep. which is definitely good.
oh, so.. classes i'm taking next sem (some are fun, some...not so.)
intro to christian educational ministries, ethnic and minority issues, biblical literature, intro to computer something (ugh. u all know how wonderful i am at computers. not!), digital tools, fit for life (oh god. i never knew i'd be doing stupid PE in college.), intro to geology (omg. another horrid class. just to fulfil my sci requirements. grr.)
17 credits. the max u can take. i'm such an overachiever. haha.maybe i shld drop something so i won't be so busy.
but angry at msn!!! having so much trouble with it. everytime i try to talk to pple, what i say doesn't go across and pple think i'm ignoring them but i'm NOT! it's the stupid system. sorry guys! i really dunno what's wrong. and then it'll log off randomly for me. grrr.
anw today was my 2nd last voice lesson. pretty glad. gettin kinda sick of it. hahaha. wish i had a better voice. had floor dinner today..sat near the mexican bar, so i pretty much smelt of cooking oil after that. gross. and then went for small group. was a pretty interesting discussion. we're reading this bk, the ragamuffin gospel. so we were discussing about the different denominations in christianity and why must they fight n argue all the time especially about petty stuff, and why can't everyone just get along since we're supposed to be ONE in Christ? and i shared with them how i've been feeling..that some pple here have very different beliefs from me and it's really hard..and i heard pretty interesting stuff from the other girls. seems like some of them grew up in conservative churches where women have NO voice in church. whatsoever. kinda sad. thought society was over that. but apparently not.
like 2 girls wanted to be pastors when they grew up, but they faced opposition from their church, even from their parents cuz they believed women have no place in leadership in the church! how sad is that???
so i told them about our church..and how women began to rise up after G12 came..and they were really amazed. so we decided to have a debate for fun. we each got put on the opposite side. so i have to argue why women shouldn't have a place in the church. heh. someone please tell me why. cuz i'm definitely not on my own side.
went for My generation night tonight. there was like a LONG line waiting outside the chapel. it's like different bands from taylor performing songs from our generation..which is 1990s..was pretty alright. the bands weren't that awesome. but some were cool. am so gonna have to put together a band and try out for next year!! haha. should be fun :)
had TCA prac again. tiring. we're playing 3 songs tmr at the concert..
amazing love (you are my king), in the secret, and before the throne.
i LOVE before the throne. it's a great song. love it to death.
have to improve on my guit skills.
oh, so.. classes i'm taking next sem (some are fun, some...not so.)
intro to christian educational ministries, ethnic and minority issues, biblical literature, intro to computer something (ugh. u all know how wonderful i am at computers. not!), digital tools, fit for life (oh god. i never knew i'd be doing stupid PE in college.), intro to geology (omg. another horrid class. just to fulfil my sci requirements. grr.)
17 credits. the max u can take. i'm such an overachiever. haha.maybe i shld drop something so i won't be so busy.
but angry at msn!!! having so much trouble with it. everytime i try to talk to pple, what i say doesn't go across and pple think i'm ignoring them but i'm NOT! it's the stupid system. sorry guys! i really dunno what's wrong. and then it'll log off randomly for me. grrr.
anw today was my 2nd last voice lesson. pretty glad. gettin kinda sick of it. hahaha. wish i had a better voice. had floor dinner today..sat near the mexican bar, so i pretty much smelt of cooking oil after that. gross. and then went for small group. was a pretty interesting discussion. we're reading this bk, the ragamuffin gospel. so we were discussing about the different denominations in christianity and why must they fight n argue all the time especially about petty stuff, and why can't everyone just get along since we're supposed to be ONE in Christ? and i shared with them how i've been feeling..that some pple here have very different beliefs from me and it's really hard..and i heard pretty interesting stuff from the other girls. seems like some of them grew up in conservative churches where women have NO voice in church. whatsoever. kinda sad. thought society was over that. but apparently not.
like 2 girls wanted to be pastors when they grew up, but they faced opposition from their church, even from their parents cuz they believed women have no place in leadership in the church! how sad is that???
so i told them about our church..and how women began to rise up after G12 came..and they were really amazed. so we decided to have a debate for fun. we each got put on the opposite side. so i have to argue why women shouldn't have a place in the church. heh. someone please tell me why. cuz i'm definitely not on my own side.
went for My generation night tonight. there was like a LONG line waiting outside the chapel. it's like different bands from taylor performing songs from our generation..which is 1990s..was pretty alright. the bands weren't that awesome. but some were cool. am so gonna have to put together a band and try out for next year!! haha. should be fun :)
had TCA prac again. tiring. we're playing 3 songs tmr at the concert..
amazing love (you are my king), in the secret, and before the throne.
i LOVE before the throne. it's a great song. love it to death.
have to improve on my guit skills.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
in the quiet
~in the secret, in the quiet place...in the stillness You are there~
today was rush rush rush. mad rush to finish studying for a quiz, mad rush to finish planning my 4 yr schedule in one hr..now mad rush to plan my schedule for next semester. stressing OUT. cuz freshmen are last to register, all the good classes are taken up!! plus i don't register till 11am tmr! which means more time for OTHER people to take spaces in the classes i want!!! grrrrr. was panicky few hrs ago. but now...whatever. let God decide which class i should get into. just hope they're gd classes.
went to the prayer chapel today..where AAA (Asian awareness association) invited this youth pastor frm chicago to come preach. it was a small intimate gathering. he was a great guy! funny n friendly n all.. an alumni from wheaton college. and he lived in s'pore for a year! so he was all 'yeah lah' and 'makan lah' to me..haha. anw..the message really spoke lots to me. he talked about losing his fire for God in college..so it was all from his own experience. he said no one ever tells u this, but it's really easy to lose sight of God especially in a christian college, cuz even though u go through all the motions and activities that seem to be 'christian', in your heart it's easy to lose your first love for Him. which i think is really true.
most activities we're involved in are to do with God..we take classes about christianity and our faith..we have chapel 3 times a wk, yet we still lose our love for God. especially since we take classes about our faith. sometimes it's not so good to learn too much. feel that it makes u cynical and abit too dependent on what's tangible instead of having faith and believing in the unseen. was really encouraged by him cuz i realized i'm not alone. that many of the people who went to that session, most of whom i knew, felt the same way as me.
he asked us to close our eyes and think of a time when we used to be deeply and passionately in love with the Lord..the times we spent together with Him, when we were full of the joy of the Lord. and he observed that all of us, with the exception of one person, were looking grouchy when we closed our eyes. to say that our memories of closeness with the Lord weren't very good? cuz normally when u think of gd memories, a smile comes to ur face. well i dunno for them, but for me i wasn't smiling much cuz as i thought of how much more on fire i was for Him in the past, i just felt really horrible. like how come i've drifted so much?? like God loves me so but i keep breaking His heart..
he preached from revelation 2. saying 'you have forsaken your first love. remember the height from which you have fallen! repent and do the things you did at first. if you do not repent, i will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.'
and then he asked us this question - are you in love with God now? at this very moment, not yesterday, not just now, but right now. is Jesus your first love? and i really had trouble answering that.. couldn't say yes. didn't wanna say no. but i knew.. that deep inside i have been losing my love for God ever since i've came. i tried..regaining it..but it just kept slipping away. so the tears came..and it was the first time i cried in front of people here. wasnt alone cuz others were sniffing too, which made me feel better. heh. and i didn't feel like i needed to hold back, cuz i knew the Lord's presence was there and i was hurting because i let Him down again and again. and the Lord just ministered to me and gave me a renewed passion for Him.
i am gonna love Him like never before!!!
~i'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus You're all this heart is living for~
today was rush rush rush. mad rush to finish studying for a quiz, mad rush to finish planning my 4 yr schedule in one hr..now mad rush to plan my schedule for next semester. stressing OUT. cuz freshmen are last to register, all the good classes are taken up!! plus i don't register till 11am tmr! which means more time for OTHER people to take spaces in the classes i want!!! grrrrr. was panicky few hrs ago. but now...whatever. let God decide which class i should get into. just hope they're gd classes.
went to the prayer chapel today..where AAA (Asian awareness association) invited this youth pastor frm chicago to come preach. it was a small intimate gathering. he was a great guy! funny n friendly n all.. an alumni from wheaton college. and he lived in s'pore for a year! so he was all 'yeah lah' and 'makan lah' to me..haha. anw..the message really spoke lots to me. he talked about losing his fire for God in college..so it was all from his own experience. he said no one ever tells u this, but it's really easy to lose sight of God especially in a christian college, cuz even though u go through all the motions and activities that seem to be 'christian', in your heart it's easy to lose your first love for Him. which i think is really true.
most activities we're involved in are to do with God..we take classes about christianity and our faith..we have chapel 3 times a wk, yet we still lose our love for God. especially since we take classes about our faith. sometimes it's not so good to learn too much. feel that it makes u cynical and abit too dependent on what's tangible instead of having faith and believing in the unseen. was really encouraged by him cuz i realized i'm not alone. that many of the people who went to that session, most of whom i knew, felt the same way as me.
he asked us to close our eyes and think of a time when we used to be deeply and passionately in love with the Lord..the times we spent together with Him, when we were full of the joy of the Lord. and he observed that all of us, with the exception of one person, were looking grouchy when we closed our eyes. to say that our memories of closeness with the Lord weren't very good? cuz normally when u think of gd memories, a smile comes to ur face. well i dunno for them, but for me i wasn't smiling much cuz as i thought of how much more on fire i was for Him in the past, i just felt really horrible. like how come i've drifted so much?? like God loves me so but i keep breaking His heart..
he preached from revelation 2. saying 'you have forsaken your first love. remember the height from which you have fallen! repent and do the things you did at first. if you do not repent, i will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.'
and then he asked us this question - are you in love with God now? at this very moment, not yesterday, not just now, but right now. is Jesus your first love? and i really had trouble answering that.. couldn't say yes. didn't wanna say no. but i knew.. that deep inside i have been losing my love for God ever since i've came. i tried..regaining it..but it just kept slipping away. so the tears came..and it was the first time i cried in front of people here. wasnt alone cuz others were sniffing too, which made me feel better. heh. and i didn't feel like i needed to hold back, cuz i knew the Lord's presence was there and i was hurting because i let Him down again and again. and the Lord just ministered to me and gave me a renewed passion for Him.
i am gonna love Him like never before!!!
~i'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus You're all this heart is living for~
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
pics from NCMSLC
sung ah and josh with statues at the museum
me and norah at the banquet at NCMSLC
me and sung ah swimminggg
ruth, sung ah and me
josh and me. that's his idea of an asian pose. haha.
back to schooolll...
was SO busy yesterday (sunday). woke up late cuz wanted to catch up on sleep. had TCA (taylor christian artists) the WHOLE DAY. prac with my band at 3, rehearse with other bands on stage in chapel at 5, then TCA worship night at 8. no time to do any hw at all. so dead! rehearsal went kinda shaky. not used to dealing with technology n stuff. now i understand how come bands can go offkey or play badly on stage. cuz u can't hear each other!! i could only hear my guit n the lead singer! couldn't hear the piano, couldn't hear myself. ugh. but we weren't off key, thank God. we didn't have our lead lead singer cuz she was sick. bad. that meant i had to sing. oh god. i'm not the best singer in the world!!! but i had to..for the band. heh. got really nervous as i saw more n more pple comin in..it wasn't a full house, but it was quite a few pple plus pple i knew. scared! but being the second band to get up on stage really helped. i just surrendered it all to God while worshipping when the first band was playing, so that helped calm my nerves a bit. then it was our turn..and it went by so fast!!!
it was AWESOME. had SUCH a great time just worshipping and praising God and the best thing was, it wasn't a performance, cuz pple were worshipping along with us!!! AWESOME. best feeling in the world. even though i couldn't hear my own voice or the piano, i think we did ok. n pple in the crowd thought we did great, so yay!! they seemed to like us. haha. plus they laughed when brent (our drummer) introduced us cuz he was like, we're nevaeh, and if ur not dyslexic, that is heaven spelled backwards. haha. all glory to God! i so wanna do it again!!! and we are..this friday. and it's a worship night on a bigger scale, cuz we're goin to hartford city and playing with other bands. so cool! really lookin forward to it. :)
after playing ystdy, realized this is what i really really LOVE with all my heart! playin in front of a crowd, bringing them into worship. would be more awesome if i had a gd voice so i could actually lead, but..oh well. so awesome to see their faces as they praise God.
so did not want to get up at 7am today. but had to! my com crashed last night. well sort of. microsoft word went crazy while i was in the midst of my 10 pg research paper which i only just started yesterday and was due today. heh. too busy!! but thank God i managed to finish it by 10am when it was due..and go for chapel where handbells was supposed to perform. supposed. we didn't in the end. one girl forgot all about it and we couldn't go on with one member missing. so we didn't perform. i'm kinda relieved. cuz we were pretty unprepared despite what the instructor kept saying. he's SUCH a nice person!! keeps telling us we're amazing when i can hear how bad we are. hahaha. he's so encouraging though. saw me perform ystdy and told me i did great!! happy. couple of pple told me that too, which was really really encouraging and what i needed. :)
finally found my advisor today and talked to him about registering for jan term and spring term semester classes. really hope i can get into the classes i want, cuz i'm a freshman, and we get to go last so by now most gd classes are already filled. pray that i can get the classes i want! easy classes to meet my general education requirements! haha.
it was AWESOME. had SUCH a great time just worshipping and praising God and the best thing was, it wasn't a performance, cuz pple were worshipping along with us!!! AWESOME. best feeling in the world. even though i couldn't hear my own voice or the piano, i think we did ok. n pple in the crowd thought we did great, so yay!! they seemed to like us. haha. plus they laughed when brent (our drummer) introduced us cuz he was like, we're nevaeh, and if ur not dyslexic, that is heaven spelled backwards. haha. all glory to God! i so wanna do it again!!! and we are..this friday. and it's a worship night on a bigger scale, cuz we're goin to hartford city and playing with other bands. so cool! really lookin forward to it. :)
after playing ystdy, realized this is what i really really LOVE with all my heart! playin in front of a crowd, bringing them into worship. would be more awesome if i had a gd voice so i could actually lead, but..oh well. so awesome to see their faces as they praise God.
so did not want to get up at 7am today. but had to! my com crashed last night. well sort of. microsoft word went crazy while i was in the midst of my 10 pg research paper which i only just started yesterday and was due today. heh. too busy!! but thank God i managed to finish it by 10am when it was due..and go for chapel where handbells was supposed to perform. supposed. we didn't in the end. one girl forgot all about it and we couldn't go on with one member missing. so we didn't perform. i'm kinda relieved. cuz we were pretty unprepared despite what the instructor kept saying. he's SUCH a nice person!! keeps telling us we're amazing when i can hear how bad we are. hahaha. he's so encouraging though. saw me perform ystdy and told me i did great!! happy. couple of pple told me that too, which was really really encouraging and what i needed. :)
finally found my advisor today and talked to him about registering for jan term and spring term semester classes. really hope i can get into the classes i want, cuz i'm a freshman, and we get to go last so by now most gd classes are already filled. pray that i can get the classes i want! easy classes to meet my general education requirements! haha.
NCMSLC
so..was down the past few days. left for cedarville, ohio for NCMSLC (national christian multicultural student leaders conference) kinda reluctantly. didn't wanna go anywhere or do anything. but the conference was really amazing. thank God so much i went.
the car ride there was kinda long..2hrs+..ate, slept, talked. josh (this guy frm argentina) was really funny. he looked thru my ipod and found something to laugh at. cuz right after a limp bizkit song came this song by psalty, the animated bible thingy. so was kinda funny. haha. anw reached there really tired. first session i really couldn't pay attention. was falling asleep. we stayed with pple in cedarville uni's dorms, and my host was reallyyy nice! so warm and friendly :) made me happy.
and whoa. the things we heard abt cedarville n some other universities made me oh-so-thankful i'm here at taylor! never again will i complain about the no-dancing rule here! at cedarville, they are weird rules like NO HUGGING! oh gosh. that's just extreme. and they have a curfew! i'm so glad we don't. they have to pay 1buck for every minute they're late. such strict rules. and they're alrdy adults still treat them like that. but the students don't seem to mind. i guess to each his own. come to appreciate taylor alot now :)
the next day was gd..had a few sessions. like holy hip hop. felt completely out of place cuz there were all blacks n i was like the only asian. haha. but it was cool. watched this series called 'black/white' about a black family who went thru lotsa makeup n stuff to look 'white' and a white family who did the same thing to look 'black' and experience their way of life. was really interesting how different both cultures were and how they had a hard time adapting. i guess i never really thought there existed a race issue before. but apparently it's a real hot topic here. i don't know. didn't feel like it concerned me much. to me, what divides the church of Christ most is the different denominations, not different ethnicities.
but i guess i've learnt that ethnicity can play a part in influencing your denomination. my fren was telling me about african churches here that speak in tongues n worship the Holy Spirit and pray by the spirit n everything, and when i told her that's what my church does at home too, she was shocked. i guess it don't happen often here. someone in my public speaking class gave a speech today on why there are not many americans coming to christ nowadays. he said 9 out of 10 pple fall away after their decision. meaning their follow up isn't gd enough. which i agree. they don't even consolidate pple. just ask them to receive in their hearts n go home n do nothing.
anw, at night we went to this national underground railroad freedom museum. i thought it was literally about railroads, but someone explained to me it was about slavery of blacks. which goes to show how much i know about american history.heh. it was really interesting..took a few pics :) really glad i went for the conference. got to know more pple..and got to talk about issues that concern me. a minority. so weird to say. never been a minority before. but i guess now i understand how minorities feel.
the last day was the best..we went to our own ethnic caucases. so i went for the international students one. didn't wanna go for the asians one cuz i knew it'll be all asian americans, which means they're essentially americans. seriously. asian americans aren't asian at all. they just look it but inside they don't even know anything about their culture. total banana. haha. anw it was wonderful!!! encouraging to know there are pple struggling with the same issues as me..everyone was so nice. and i realized the international student society here at taylor is the BEST! we're taken care of SO WELL compared to other universities. thank God once again for putting me here!!! :)
a few things pple said that touched me. one guy was like, i'm proud of my accent and i won't change it for the world! who cares if americans can't understand me. that's what i like about being in a foreign ctry. it was really cool how firm he was in his own identity. and he also said it's important to FIND yourself first and not let others influence u. so i'm determined to STAND STRONG in what i believe in and who cares about what others say. i know the truth is the truth and that is Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour, and to heck with all the discouraging comments. so what if they don't believe in what i believe in?? i know what i beileve in is right, and that's all that matters. no one should be able to sway me.
and also..cuz i've been strugglin with their style of worship n all..someone said we are the ones who have chosen to come here, and God has put us here for a purpose, so i believe i can get over myself and begin to worship Him wholeheartedly even though the worship style isn't what i'm used to at all. i'm gonna revolutionize the whole worship scene here at taylor!!!! :)
~oh God let us be a generation that seeks
seeks Your face oh God of Jacob~
the car ride there was kinda long..2hrs+..ate, slept, talked. josh (this guy frm argentina) was really funny. he looked thru my ipod and found something to laugh at. cuz right after a limp bizkit song came this song by psalty, the animated bible thingy. so was kinda funny. haha. anw reached there really tired. first session i really couldn't pay attention. was falling asleep. we stayed with pple in cedarville uni's dorms, and my host was reallyyy nice! so warm and friendly :) made me happy.
and whoa. the things we heard abt cedarville n some other universities made me oh-so-thankful i'm here at taylor! never again will i complain about the no-dancing rule here! at cedarville, they are weird rules like NO HUGGING! oh gosh. that's just extreme. and they have a curfew! i'm so glad we don't. they have to pay 1buck for every minute they're late. such strict rules. and they're alrdy adults still treat them like that. but the students don't seem to mind. i guess to each his own. come to appreciate taylor alot now :)
the next day was gd..had a few sessions. like holy hip hop. felt completely out of place cuz there were all blacks n i was like the only asian. haha. but it was cool. watched this series called 'black/white' about a black family who went thru lotsa makeup n stuff to look 'white' and a white family who did the same thing to look 'black' and experience their way of life. was really interesting how different both cultures were and how they had a hard time adapting. i guess i never really thought there existed a race issue before. but apparently it's a real hot topic here. i don't know. didn't feel like it concerned me much. to me, what divides the church of Christ most is the different denominations, not different ethnicities.
but i guess i've learnt that ethnicity can play a part in influencing your denomination. my fren was telling me about african churches here that speak in tongues n worship the Holy Spirit and pray by the spirit n everything, and when i told her that's what my church does at home too, she was shocked. i guess it don't happen often here. someone in my public speaking class gave a speech today on why there are not many americans coming to christ nowadays. he said 9 out of 10 pple fall away after their decision. meaning their follow up isn't gd enough. which i agree. they don't even consolidate pple. just ask them to receive in their hearts n go home n do nothing.
anw, at night we went to this national underground railroad freedom museum. i thought it was literally about railroads, but someone explained to me it was about slavery of blacks. which goes to show how much i know about american history.heh. it was really interesting..took a few pics :) really glad i went for the conference. got to know more pple..and got to talk about issues that concern me. a minority. so weird to say. never been a minority before. but i guess now i understand how minorities feel.
the last day was the best..we went to our own ethnic caucases. so i went for the international students one. didn't wanna go for the asians one cuz i knew it'll be all asian americans, which means they're essentially americans. seriously. asian americans aren't asian at all. they just look it but inside they don't even know anything about their culture. total banana. haha. anw it was wonderful!!! encouraging to know there are pple struggling with the same issues as me..everyone was so nice. and i realized the international student society here at taylor is the BEST! we're taken care of SO WELL compared to other universities. thank God once again for putting me here!!! :)
a few things pple said that touched me. one guy was like, i'm proud of my accent and i won't change it for the world! who cares if americans can't understand me. that's what i like about being in a foreign ctry. it was really cool how firm he was in his own identity. and he also said it's important to FIND yourself first and not let others influence u. so i'm determined to STAND STRONG in what i believe in and who cares about what others say. i know the truth is the truth and that is Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour, and to heck with all the discouraging comments. so what if they don't believe in what i believe in?? i know what i beileve in is right, and that's all that matters. no one should be able to sway me.
and also..cuz i've been strugglin with their style of worship n all..someone said we are the ones who have chosen to come here, and God has put us here for a purpose, so i believe i can get over myself and begin to worship Him wholeheartedly even though the worship style isn't what i'm used to at all. i'm gonna revolutionize the whole worship scene here at taylor!!!! :)
~oh God let us be a generation that seeks
seeks Your face oh God of Jacob~
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Psalm 13
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide you face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, 'I have overcome him.'
and my foes will rejoice when I fall
But I trust in your unfailing love
my heart rejoices in your salvation
I will sing to the Lord
for He has been good to me
~how many times have i broken your heart
still you forgive if only i ask
how many times have you heard me pray
draw near to me
everything i need is You
my beginning my forever~
How long will you hide you face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, 'I have overcome him.'
and my foes will rejoice when I fall
But I trust in your unfailing love
my heart rejoices in your salvation
I will sing to the Lord
for He has been good to me
~how many times have i broken your heart
still you forgive if only i ask
how many times have you heard me pray
draw near to me
everything i need is You
my beginning my forever~
:(
today was a pretty down day. i don't know.
speech class made me kinda down. got the feedback abt my speech frm the rest of the class. the comments were pretty gd..most pple liked it. just that i spoke too fast. again! i tried to slow down already!! grrr. but like, 2 pple said stuff that made me really sad. one was like, u shld have chosen a topic that u could persuade. of cuz everyone'll say that we need God more. cop out.
!!!! that was so mean. does that mean this person spends time with God daily, regularly? never failing to put aside time for Him? then i admire his discipline. but it's been a personal struggle for me, so the speech is personal. i wasn't persuading them to acknowledge we need God more, i was persuading them to not be so caught up in life that they forget God.
and then another was like, i have a personal lack of faith in most of ur sources. lotsa false assumptions. assumed loving God=spending time with Him alone. then why wouldn't God say this explicitly in the Bible? doesn't God want many different things from us?
but doesn't God want us to spend time with Him alone?? yeah He wants many things from us, but first He wants us to love Him and then do His works. i'm just really confused right now. what's wrong with my sources?? the purpose driven life, drawing near, live your calling. i don't see anything wrong. i feel like i'm in a college with people who claim to be christians but actually believe in something worlds apart from me. i don't even feel a connection with them as a body of christ. it's just so hard cuz they all believe in something so unfamiliar to me. feel like my faith is being tested or something. either there's something wrong with their beliefs or mine. right now it feels like mine's wrong. like they're all ganging up against me n telling me the God i've always believed in and loved doesn't exist.
how could we be so different? isn't God the same everywhere? doesn't He treat everyone the same? isn't the Bible the same everywhere? then how come i feel like no one understands the God i know? this just makes me doubt myself. makes me depressed.
if i can't even persuade college CHRISTIAN students about God, how on earth can God use me to persuade others around the world to come to know Him? i feel like maybe everything i ever thought i heard from Him was wrong. maybe He doesn't wanna use me to speak to the lost anymore. maybe i'm just meant to take a boring desk job somewhere in the middle of nowhere n just be like those pple who are christians only on sunday. i feel like i don't even have the ability to do anything for Him. i don't even have any talents. how can God use someone like me.
just heard the song 'free'
~would u believe me if i said that we are the ones who can make the change in the world today
would u believe me if i said that all of the dreams in your heart could come true today~
i don't think i have the faith to believe this anymore. i can't even change the people arnd me. how can i change the world.
my heart is shattered to dust. where are you, Lord?
speech class made me kinda down. got the feedback abt my speech frm the rest of the class. the comments were pretty gd..most pple liked it. just that i spoke too fast. again! i tried to slow down already!! grrr. but like, 2 pple said stuff that made me really sad. one was like, u shld have chosen a topic that u could persuade. of cuz everyone'll say that we need God more. cop out.
!!!! that was so mean. does that mean this person spends time with God daily, regularly? never failing to put aside time for Him? then i admire his discipline. but it's been a personal struggle for me, so the speech is personal. i wasn't persuading them to acknowledge we need God more, i was persuading them to not be so caught up in life that they forget God.
and then another was like, i have a personal lack of faith in most of ur sources. lotsa false assumptions. assumed loving God=spending time with Him alone. then why wouldn't God say this explicitly in the Bible? doesn't God want many different things from us?
but doesn't God want us to spend time with Him alone?? yeah He wants many things from us, but first He wants us to love Him and then do His works. i'm just really confused right now. what's wrong with my sources?? the purpose driven life, drawing near, live your calling. i don't see anything wrong. i feel like i'm in a college with people who claim to be christians but actually believe in something worlds apart from me. i don't even feel a connection with them as a body of christ. it's just so hard cuz they all believe in something so unfamiliar to me. feel like my faith is being tested or something. either there's something wrong with their beliefs or mine. right now it feels like mine's wrong. like they're all ganging up against me n telling me the God i've always believed in and loved doesn't exist.
how could we be so different? isn't God the same everywhere? doesn't He treat everyone the same? isn't the Bible the same everywhere? then how come i feel like no one understands the God i know? this just makes me doubt myself. makes me depressed.
if i can't even persuade college CHRISTIAN students about God, how on earth can God use me to persuade others around the world to come to know Him? i feel like maybe everything i ever thought i heard from Him was wrong. maybe He doesn't wanna use me to speak to the lost anymore. maybe i'm just meant to take a boring desk job somewhere in the middle of nowhere n just be like those pple who are christians only on sunday. i feel like i don't even have the ability to do anything for Him. i don't even have any talents. how can God use someone like me.
just heard the song 'free'
~would u believe me if i said that we are the ones who can make the change in the world today
would u believe me if i said that all of the dreams in your heart could come true today~
i don't think i have the faith to believe this anymore. i can't even change the people arnd me. how can i change the world.
my heart is shattered to dust. where are you, Lord?
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
WOW~
This wk is World Opportunities Week. excited! haha :) at the DC there were booths with all sorts of different ministries u could get involved in. pretty cool.
anw on sun i hardly got any sleep. was a total walking zombie. woke up at the break of dawn at 7am for handbells..performed at our instructor, Dr parker's church. was a pretty church. we messed up abit on the songs, but it was alright. everyone was so sweet and told us that we did great :) after lunch had TCA prac..trying to tie up all the loose ends last min. we performed at some veterans' home in the evening. rented a car from Taylor and drove there..kinda got lost cuz we had no idea what the directions were trying to tell us.hahaha.
anw finally found the place..it was creepy at first. like dark and deserted. about 20+pple turned up for our performance..they thought we were gonna preach or smth cuz we overheard them saying smth abt a 'church service'.heh. so not. played 50mins worth of songs and read scriptures. went pretty alright for our first gig. gd first experience :)
they were all so nice! they really appreciated us :) one guy even came up to me and asked me abt my guit..which i knew nothin abt.haha.shld go find out more abt my guit so i won't look like an idiot whenever someone asks me abt it..which is quite often.
super tired on sun. running on little sleep. plus had to work on my speech :(
gave my persuasive speech today. topic was on taking time off life to be with God. think i did pretty ok. was kinda nervous the first few seconds, but after that was ok. just didn't really know what to do with my hands. haha. i liked my topic though :)
glad to get it over and done with! one more speech and i'm done with this class! yay! had dance prac in chapel..still need to perfect it!!! hope we'll be ready by wed! and then TCA prac again..cuz we're performing again this sun on campus. heh. need to be more perfect cuz we'll be performing in front of pple we know!!! but we sounded pretty alright so it's cool :)
just came back from a late night run to walmart with gerig pple..was fun :) got stuff i needed. like food. hahaha. and water. the horrid thing is i've gotten so used to fountain water i find the taste of bottled water weird! haha. which is bad. stopped at Payne's for drinks after..their hot chocolate is yummy! so glad tmr is tue. gonna skip foundations cuz its a useless class. which means my first class starts at 3pm! yay! i can sleep till 2pm! i love my life :)
~Jesus paid it all...all to Him i owe...sin had left a crimson stain...He washed it all away~
anw on sun i hardly got any sleep. was a total walking zombie. woke up at the break of dawn at 7am for handbells..performed at our instructor, Dr parker's church. was a pretty church. we messed up abit on the songs, but it was alright. everyone was so sweet and told us that we did great :) after lunch had TCA prac..trying to tie up all the loose ends last min. we performed at some veterans' home in the evening. rented a car from Taylor and drove there..kinda got lost cuz we had no idea what the directions were trying to tell us.hahaha.
anw finally found the place..it was creepy at first. like dark and deserted. about 20+pple turned up for our performance..they thought we were gonna preach or smth cuz we overheard them saying smth abt a 'church service'.heh. so not. played 50mins worth of songs and read scriptures. went pretty alright for our first gig. gd first experience :)
they were all so nice! they really appreciated us :) one guy even came up to me and asked me abt my guit..which i knew nothin abt.haha.shld go find out more abt my guit so i won't look like an idiot whenever someone asks me abt it..which is quite often.
super tired on sun. running on little sleep. plus had to work on my speech :(
gave my persuasive speech today. topic was on taking time off life to be with God. think i did pretty ok. was kinda nervous the first few seconds, but after that was ok. just didn't really know what to do with my hands. haha. i liked my topic though :)
glad to get it over and done with! one more speech and i'm done with this class! yay! had dance prac in chapel..still need to perfect it!!! hope we'll be ready by wed! and then TCA prac again..cuz we're performing again this sun on campus. heh. need to be more perfect cuz we'll be performing in front of pple we know!!! but we sounded pretty alright so it's cool :)
just came back from a late night run to walmart with gerig pple..was fun :) got stuff i needed. like food. hahaha. and water. the horrid thing is i've gotten so used to fountain water i find the taste of bottled water weird! haha. which is bad. stopped at Payne's for drinks after..their hot chocolate is yummy! so glad tmr is tue. gonna skip foundations cuz its a useless class. which means my first class starts at 3pm! yay! i can sleep till 2pm! i love my life :)
~Jesus paid it all...all to Him i owe...sin had left a crimson stain...He washed it all away~
Sunday, November 05, 2006
relaxeddd..
:) this wk's been so relaxing! love it. but next wk's gonna be hectic. haha. hardly had any hw at all this wk! so happieee. :)
had dance practice everyday this wk. we're performing next wed in chapel! half nervous half excited half ready to get it over with. haha. finally paid the overdue fees for my voice lesson. heh. not used to being responsible for my finances yet. had to pay interest cuz it was overdue. haha. still haven't gotten my health shots from the health center. not really lookin forward to it. trying to delay as much as possible.
thur we had prayer and praise with our bro and sis floor.. was pretty cool. us all worshipping at the racquetball courts. could hear our voices echoing off the walls. ystdy went for soup night..gd food again! i love eating elsewhere other than the DC. then had dance prac again. tiring. and then went to see the girls' first basketball game of the season. stayed till half time. they were pretty gd. and we won! yay :) our team pple were so tall compared to their opponents.
then went to the souphouse (a place where some guys stay off campus) and watched the first episode of lost. was trying to introduce it to capri cuz she nv watched it before. josh came and made popcorn for us! he was so nice! watched hoodwinked aft that..it was this kiddy animation show. pretty cute though. the hyperactive squirrel. i love squirrels! and then came back to the dorm abt 1am..ate tom yum noodles with cartoon again. haha. got a stomachache again. should stop eating chilli stuff at night. talked to my family n cousins on skype!!! happieee. cute little angel and crystal! aaahhh. love them lots. so super adorable. wish i could reach out n squeeze their cheeks. :)
today was super busy..went for cartoon brunch! they set up this projector in the DC and we watched cartoons while eating lunch. felt like we were re-living our childhood.haha. watched looney tunes..dun really like cartoons, but this was pretty entertaining. :)
had dance prac...again. but we've finally finalized our dance steps! now all that's left is to perfect it. heh. and find our costumes. easier said than done! went to ivanhoe's (an ice cream parlour within walking distance of taylor) for sundaes..yummy! walked there with a couple of girls from my dorm. had a gd bonding time :) hannah psychoanalyzed us..haha. asked us like, what's our fav col, what's our fav animal and where's our fav place. the first symbolizes how u see urself, or how u want others to see u, the second shows how ur future spouse will be, and the third is how u view God. :)
everyone knows my fav col - black. cool colour. so pple think i'm cool..laidback. that's kinda like me. haha. then fav animal..dolphins! cuz they're so cute! so my future guy will be cute! haha. and fav place..back home when we have family gatherings..cuz i love my cousins! and that's how i view God - familiar, comfortable.. :)
anw ran kinda late for TCA prac cuz i lost track of time while at ivanhoe's.haha. so didn't get to practice much with them. but meeting again tmr cuz we really have to prac for our performance tmr and next sun. just got back from skating with a couple of international students. was pretty fun!!! never roller skated before. roller blade yes, but not skate. it's the one with 4wheels in a square shape. not roller blade, like the wheels all in one line. but i got used to it pretty fast, and could skate arnd the circle without holding the rails. haha. saw a few guys doin tricks in the middle of the ring. so cool! played tag..haha. made it more fun and purposeful cuz skating in circles becomes monotonous after a while. but bad thing - got tagged and totally fell on my knees. ouch. they hurt so bad now!!!
and.. realized i've been incredibly blessed by God..like in terms of finances. alot of pple here have to work n save for their tuition fees, and i don't have to worry about all that. even have pocket money given by my parents. so..just really grateful to God for providing so much for my family :) God is gd, all the time!!
had dance practice everyday this wk. we're performing next wed in chapel! half nervous half excited half ready to get it over with. haha. finally paid the overdue fees for my voice lesson. heh. not used to being responsible for my finances yet. had to pay interest cuz it was overdue. haha. still haven't gotten my health shots from the health center. not really lookin forward to it. trying to delay as much as possible.
thur we had prayer and praise with our bro and sis floor.. was pretty cool. us all worshipping at the racquetball courts. could hear our voices echoing off the walls. ystdy went for soup night..gd food again! i love eating elsewhere other than the DC. then had dance prac again. tiring. and then went to see the girls' first basketball game of the season. stayed till half time. they were pretty gd. and we won! yay :) our team pple were so tall compared to their opponents.
then went to the souphouse (a place where some guys stay off campus) and watched the first episode of lost. was trying to introduce it to capri cuz she nv watched it before. josh came and made popcorn for us! he was so nice! watched hoodwinked aft that..it was this kiddy animation show. pretty cute though. the hyperactive squirrel. i love squirrels! and then came back to the dorm abt 1am..ate tom yum noodles with cartoon again. haha. got a stomachache again. should stop eating chilli stuff at night. talked to my family n cousins on skype!!! happieee. cute little angel and crystal! aaahhh. love them lots. so super adorable. wish i could reach out n squeeze their cheeks. :)
today was super busy..went for cartoon brunch! they set up this projector in the DC and we watched cartoons while eating lunch. felt like we were re-living our childhood.haha. watched looney tunes..dun really like cartoons, but this was pretty entertaining. :)
had dance prac...again. but we've finally finalized our dance steps! now all that's left is to perfect it. heh. and find our costumes. easier said than done! went to ivanhoe's (an ice cream parlour within walking distance of taylor) for sundaes..yummy! walked there with a couple of girls from my dorm. had a gd bonding time :) hannah psychoanalyzed us..haha. asked us like, what's our fav col, what's our fav animal and where's our fav place. the first symbolizes how u see urself, or how u want others to see u, the second shows how ur future spouse will be, and the third is how u view God. :)
everyone knows my fav col - black. cool colour. so pple think i'm cool..laidback. that's kinda like me. haha. then fav animal..dolphins! cuz they're so cute! so my future guy will be cute! haha. and fav place..back home when we have family gatherings..cuz i love my cousins! and that's how i view God - familiar, comfortable.. :)
anw ran kinda late for TCA prac cuz i lost track of time while at ivanhoe's.haha. so didn't get to practice much with them. but meeting again tmr cuz we really have to prac for our performance tmr and next sun. just got back from skating with a couple of international students. was pretty fun!!! never roller skated before. roller blade yes, but not skate. it's the one with 4wheels in a square shape. not roller blade, like the wheels all in one line. but i got used to it pretty fast, and could skate arnd the circle without holding the rails. haha. saw a few guys doin tricks in the middle of the ring. so cool! played tag..haha. made it more fun and purposeful cuz skating in circles becomes monotonous after a while. but bad thing - got tagged and totally fell on my knees. ouch. they hurt so bad now!!!
and.. realized i've been incredibly blessed by God..like in terms of finances. alot of pple here have to work n save for their tuition fees, and i don't have to worry about all that. even have pocket money given by my parents. so..just really grateful to God for providing so much for my family :) God is gd, all the time!!
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
halloween
today's halloween! not that i care. but there were little kids coming to our dorm doing trick-or-treat..was so cute!! they were all decked out in their costumes. some were horses, fairies, even saw a guy from taylor in a spiderman costume. haha. and a little girl in a french fries costume. adorable.
today was a great day. the first relaxed day i've had in a long while!! first class started at 1..woke up abt 11+ to study for the foundations of christian thought test at 1..was pretty easy.
remember when i was all excited abt this course? well, not really anymore. all he talks abt is animal and human bodies and sex. feel like i'm in sec sch again where they always make us sit thru sex education talks. ugh. anw..actually managed to finish all my hw by 9.30pm today!! so proud of myself. haha. went for a halloween party/gathering thingy with the other ethnic scholars. was alright. lotsa candy and caramel apples n stuff. sorta looking forward yet not really to next wk. the gd thing is the christian leaders conference is next wk! and i get to miss classes to go to cedarville, ohio! coolness. and TCA worship night is next sun. our band's playing. excited! and we've got our dance performance for WOW week. but..got my speech to deliver on mon morn. what a way to start the wk! nervous. i keep talking too fast whenever i get up there to give my speech. sigh. not just nerves but i've got too much content to gotta say it all out in the given time limit. haha.
taking time off life to spend with God :)
today was a great day. the first relaxed day i've had in a long while!! first class started at 1..woke up abt 11+ to study for the foundations of christian thought test at 1..was pretty easy.
remember when i was all excited abt this course? well, not really anymore. all he talks abt is animal and human bodies and sex. feel like i'm in sec sch again where they always make us sit thru sex education talks. ugh. anw..actually managed to finish all my hw by 9.30pm today!! so proud of myself. haha. went for a halloween party/gathering thingy with the other ethnic scholars. was alright. lotsa candy and caramel apples n stuff. sorta looking forward yet not really to next wk. the gd thing is the christian leaders conference is next wk! and i get to miss classes to go to cedarville, ohio! coolness. and TCA worship night is next sun. our band's playing. excited! and we've got our dance performance for WOW week. but..got my speech to deliver on mon morn. what a way to start the wk! nervous. i keep talking too fast whenever i get up there to give my speech. sigh. not just nerves but i've got too much content to gotta say it all out in the given time limit. haha.
taking time off life to spend with God :)
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
always and forever
fire fall down..on us we pray... guess what!! we sang that song in chapel today!! i was FLOORED. AMAZED. FLABBERGASTED. they actually sang hillsongs!~!~ oh my gosh. i loved that band. hope they play every time!!! was so excited. and i was like the only one who knew how to sing n was singing it happily. haha. wheee. just really psyched they played somethin other than hymns!!!
chapel was wonderful. glad i woke up in time to go :) this missionary from lebanon came to speak to us..he's had such a hard life bringing the gospel to the lost in lebanon..all that persecution n all..but thru it all he still remained faithful and continued proclaiming God's word. so amazing. i hate to say it but i just feel like if God wants to send me to some third country i'll just die there..dun think my threshold of pain/bad living conditions is that high. sometimes i just wish i love science so i can study medicine n be a doctor n go help those kids in the poor countries. just feel so HELPLESS. like there are people all over the world suffering n here i am, doing nothing about it. sigh.
anw yesterday was a slack day. went to chapel for service..did hw..slacked arnd. sunday's always my hw day. :( mad rush at the library every sun 9-12mdnight. haha. just came back frm dance prac n dinner..kinda nervous abt performing in front of everyone in chapel next wed!!! so fast!!!
chapel was wonderful. glad i woke up in time to go :) this missionary from lebanon came to speak to us..he's had such a hard life bringing the gospel to the lost in lebanon..all that persecution n all..but thru it all he still remained faithful and continued proclaiming God's word. so amazing. i hate to say it but i just feel like if God wants to send me to some third country i'll just die there..dun think my threshold of pain/bad living conditions is that high. sometimes i just wish i love science so i can study medicine n be a doctor n go help those kids in the poor countries. just feel so HELPLESS. like there are people all over the world suffering n here i am, doing nothing about it. sigh.
anw yesterday was a slack day. went to chapel for service..did hw..slacked arnd. sunday's always my hw day. :( mad rush at the library every sun 9-12mdnight. haha. just came back frm dance prac n dinner..kinda nervous abt performing in front of everyone in chapel next wed!!! so fast!!!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
shoppingggg!!
went shopping today!~!~happieee :) went to muncie mall 45mins away with sung ah, cartoon n her parents. they're so cute!haha. bought so much stuff. heh. bags!warm clothes!food!yay! got cute little gloves n a beanie. i love cute winter clothes! was gonna buy this absolutely adorable pair of winter boots, but..alrdy have one. shouldn't waste money!!haha. but they were oh-so-cute!! but am quite appalled by the total amount i spent today. heh. making up for going so long without shopping. even though i just shopped at chicago last wk. :)
spent like..US200+bucks. heh. couldn't resist buying the House season 2 dvd!!! i love house. shall not spend on anything other than warm clothes anymore. didn't get to buy fruits/healthy stuff though..cuz stupid Target didn't sell!! and we didn't go to walmart. oh gosh. heard so many horror stories of walmart..like they support the gay cause. so all my money goes to promoting gay pple or smth. haha. i so need to eat healthy stuff now. getting no nutrition from DC food. none at all.
then went to the Daudts' house for international food dinner!!! had thai curry, argentina style steak, some kinda muffin thingy, n other delicious foodies!! happiness.
after that planned to crash the taylor chorale concert..cuz had to pay 8 whole bucks for the concert!!! was gonna sneak in..but they collected tix. so ended up buying the tix. the concert was AMAZING! seriously. they invited this black guy, whose voice was absolutely AMAZING. he could hold the microphone at his hips and we'd still hear his powerful voice. wow. so cool. was the best impromptu worship session ever! totally gospel music. so cool. pple were actually grooving to the music!!! haha.
spent like..US200+bucks. heh. couldn't resist buying the House season 2 dvd!!! i love house. shall not spend on anything other than warm clothes anymore. didn't get to buy fruits/healthy stuff though..cuz stupid Target didn't sell!! and we didn't go to walmart. oh gosh. heard so many horror stories of walmart..like they support the gay cause. so all my money goes to promoting gay pple or smth. haha. i so need to eat healthy stuff now. getting no nutrition from DC food. none at all.
then went to the Daudts' house for international food dinner!!! had thai curry, argentina style steak, some kinda muffin thingy, n other delicious foodies!! happiness.
after that planned to crash the taylor chorale concert..cuz had to pay 8 whole bucks for the concert!!! was gonna sneak in..but they collected tix. so ended up buying the tix. the concert was AMAZING! seriously. they invited this black guy, whose voice was absolutely AMAZING. he could hold the microphone at his hips and we'd still hear his powerful voice. wow. so cool. was the best impromptu worship session ever! totally gospel music. so cool. pple were actually grooving to the music!!! haha.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
still tired....
this wk has been the most exhausting week of my whole entire life!!! seriously. painting the stupid set for 'a man of all seasons' (which opened today. heard it was pretty gd, but didn't see it. so not gonna pay a freakin US8bucks to go see them. rather go see a movie. haha.) studying for all the tests n being swamped with hw for expos writing again. the hw never stops! gosh. enough already. slept at like 3+++am everyday. so xin ku :(
plus i must rant about people here. oh. my. gawd. like all they think about is freakin MARRIAGE. seriously!! there's more to life than gettin married n settling down n having kids!!! arrrggh. like, the girls here come with one aim - to get married. they change their majors to those with more guys so they can find a husband faster!!
anw today was the start of parents' weekend. was ok. most pple caution me that if there ever is a time to feel homesick, this is definitely it. but i really wasn't. all the parents who came were so nice! cuz they knew some of our parents couldn't come, so we were like their children for a day. so sweet :) had a super busy day. went to classes, then drove with a few other pple to ball state university abt 45 mins away to take the chi test. which was the EASIEST chi test i have EVER taken in my whole entire life. like, the instructions were actually in english. and if u didn't know how to write a chi word, u could just write the han yu pin yin. i wish all chi tests could be like that. then i wouldn't have to suffer so much. but it was embarrassing cuz i forgot how to write SO many characters. hehe.
but the teacher was pretty impressed, cuz the rest could only speak well, they didn't really learn how to read n write. most were missionary kids from china. so hopefully can get all the credits n dun need to take chi lessons. ugh. real ironic. come to US take chi lessons. then went for orphans' night at the upland community church. haha. sounds kinda sad..like we're all orphans. but it was a BLAST. had so much fun! altho i got hit by a frisbee like TWICE on the jaw. pain!! played hockey n bball..and my fren brought her 3 younger bros. oh gosh. totally adorable. reminded me of my bros. aaahhhh. the way they played n 'fought' with each other n all. sigh. so cute. kept messing up the little boy's hair like i always do to jedi :) so grateful to taylor n mukappa for these kinda events that keep u away frm missing home cuz everyone else's parents are here.
plus i must rant about people here. oh. my. gawd. like all they think about is freakin MARRIAGE. seriously!! there's more to life than gettin married n settling down n having kids!!! arrrggh. like, the girls here come with one aim - to get married. they change their majors to those with more guys so they can find a husband faster!!
anw today was the start of parents' weekend. was ok. most pple caution me that if there ever is a time to feel homesick, this is definitely it. but i really wasn't. all the parents who came were so nice! cuz they knew some of our parents couldn't come, so we were like their children for a day. so sweet :) had a super busy day. went to classes, then drove with a few other pple to ball state university abt 45 mins away to take the chi test. which was the EASIEST chi test i have EVER taken in my whole entire life. like, the instructions were actually in english. and if u didn't know how to write a chi word, u could just write the han yu pin yin. i wish all chi tests could be like that. then i wouldn't have to suffer so much. but it was embarrassing cuz i forgot how to write SO many characters. hehe.
but the teacher was pretty impressed, cuz the rest could only speak well, they didn't really learn how to read n write. most were missionary kids from china. so hopefully can get all the credits n dun need to take chi lessons. ugh. real ironic. come to US take chi lessons. then went for orphans' night at the upland community church. haha. sounds kinda sad..like we're all orphans. but it was a BLAST. had so much fun! altho i got hit by a frisbee like TWICE on the jaw. pain!! played hockey n bball..and my fren brought her 3 younger bros. oh gosh. totally adorable. reminded me of my bros. aaahhhh. the way they played n 'fought' with each other n all. sigh. so cute. kept messing up the little boy's hair like i always do to jedi :) so grateful to taylor n mukappa for these kinda events that keep u away frm missing home cuz everyone else's parents are here.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Pics from chicago
rhona, me, norah n mango juice! how i miss mangoes. the only fruits they have in the DC are so-not-sweet apples, bananas, and mushy, squishy plums. ew.
sung ah, cartoon n me outside giordano's! the best pizza place in chicago. the cheese was like 2cm thick!!
capri, me n cartoon at chicago subway station. grossness. it was SO dirty and it STANK. sat down on a seat and got up immediately cuz it smelt of urine. oh god.
asians!
sung ah scaring dr. abebe. he's the one in charge of international students. stayed at his house during fall break. such a cool hse.
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